· Lot of Ink
· Bridge
· Lots of Dermal Anchors
· Redo my 2ga Navel
· 5 x Vertical Madison
· 2x 32 mm Horizontal Stomache Surface
· 10 x Leg Surface
°My Life should sound like this°
· The Used
· Thrice
· Rise Against
· Placebo
· Sadirity
· Acid Bath
· Emty Trash
· old! Marilyn Manson
· From Autumn to Ashes
· Juliette & The Licks
· Bullet for my Valentine
2009/05/26 08:43 Hey guys...
It's now almost 2 years since I was here... Since this date I didn't went on Iam or even on Bme. I don't know why I did it now... I just wanted to see how my site looked and all this stuff, I couldn't even remember.
So, ermh... Iam really touched. I didn't expect that there still was going on that much. People still got to see my page and peope still wrote me so much messages. So all of you thanks alot it made me kind of emotional... At the same time it was very hard to see my pics again it's just like I can see what my life was, a few years ago. I mean I was really happy I loved life and I didn't had those problems, which I have now.
It really started a year ago i think. My life changed so much. Iam in the worsed condition I have ever been. Even in my drug period when I was 17, I was doing better. (God, how I wished I could go back there) I don't know how it camed so far. Sometimes I can't even look at myself, sometimes I hate myself, sometimes I can't leave the house. I turned to a person, who I never ever wanted to be. It feels like there is nothing left from the girl that I was. Iam only a shadow of this girl.
At some days Iam so shocked when I look in the mirror. I hate every millimeter, it's so disgusting. I hate my life. I can't deal with time and it got so hard for me to deal with the world outside. Iam disable to hold on relationships (any kind of). I removed a lot of my piercings and Iam looking forward to cut my dreads.
So I hope no one is going to blame me for this. (I don't really have the right words for) like... to put me down as "something"... I just wanted to explain why i left. So at this point it's maybe a little clear why I won't be able to be activ on Iam any more. So it has an end now... Kisses Tanja
NOVA ROCK - Festival
2007/06/15 17:18 It was from 15.-17. June 07, we drove there on the 13. When we came it rained so bad we were wet all through. But my girlfriend reserved a place for us all already. The place was great. It was amazing we were bout 8 big tents and made a big circle with them so we had a great place in the middle.
It was the best festival ever, papa roach was great, linkin park was off the hook, manson was amazing, laughed at lordi, saw incubus, negative, ill nino, real big fish, billy talent and children of bodom the 1st time.
I had a fight with about 10 securities and i punched one in the face, I speeded through a barrier of securities and police officers with my car at night.
I met lot of people, I didn't sleep at all from saturday to sunday, I hade something with a guy who came from jail 4 weeks ago, I made a video at 5 'clock in the morning, I slept good, I ate good, I drank a lot. ;)
This is the official video but I don't like it the way it's made.
But this is a good one - private...
The graduation
2007/06/06 16:52 It was wednesday the 6th of june. the final day... all other classes already knew if they were accepted for the next grade. My class (Painting and process oriented artforms) and the class: print graphic were the last ones...
So we waited and waited till the commission discussed bout everyone. Hours and hours... I went to a girlfriend I couldn't wait in school any more. Suddenly someone called and said: Congratulations !!! I went to school and looked at the list, I made it ;) ...and then we started drinking ;) ;) ;) but I sat together with the older students cause my schoolmates all went home or something like that.
So the most of them had their certification already (diploma) so we "party" real hard and I drank so much ;) late we all went to the official party on a boat. I didn't even made it there ;) I had to sit down a few meters before and i lay there for a long time, but my guys stayed with me. Lot of people I knew came across and everybody stayed a little time it was cool but i was so drunk.
My examination !!!
2007/06/01 15:31 Deadline was 1 o'clock... I had to hand in my portfolio for my exam to be proved for the next grade. I worked day after day. Preparing my workings and 2 days before the deadline i didn't sleep at all. I was in school the hole day, at 9 or 10 o'clock I went home, worked the hole night and in the morning I came back to school and continued.
I had over 25 workings, size (50x70 cm), an external folder for my photographs, 2 videos and a object. I couldn't finish it till 1 o'clock and i asked for a bit more time. In the end I made it and I hand it in at 1:40 ;)
