| 2005/07/10 08:39 I need to just vent right now. I need something to help me get over my insecurities. I need help trying to feel good about my appearance. My body image is pure shit. Its so bad that it takes a toll on the way I function. when I go out I worry about how fat I look. I check out all the other females and I get sad that I dont look as good. I dont even let my own boyfriend touch me most of the times, cause I'm afraid he'll touch a roll, or a chubby spot. Because of this he gets angry and we get into fights all the time. He just wants to be affectionate, but I push him away. I dont want to be touched. every inch of me feels ugly.
I want to feel better. but no matter how much weight I lose and how much I worked out nothing ever made me feel better about myself. I still feel oversized and ugly. I would do absolutely anything just to like myself. just so I could let myself be liked by others. just so I could believe someone when they told me I'm beautiful. I want to be ok with me.
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