i came here to chew bubble gum and kick ass.....and i'm out of bubble gum.
Industrial? yes. Unpredictable? absolutely. Divine? of course, darling!
**Generic me info:**
Lauren. 29. Temple U graduate. CVS assistant manager. failed vegetarian. pansexual. punki-goth. kinky. slutty. submissive. happy.
Stuff what pleases me:
fake meat
BDSM
penguins
fishnets
The Simpsons
gender blurring
morbid comics
angry girl bands
rivetheads
thrift stores
West Philly
self-discovery
sex
stuff what makes me growl:
scratched CDs
hate
conformity
capital punishment
bad grammar and punctuation
homophobia
capitalism
closed-mindedness
These are a few of my favorite things...
MUSIC!! Rasputina * Hungry Lucy * Tori Amos * Wolfsheim * Voltaire * Switchblade Symphony * Portishead * The Cruxshadows * Bella Morte * Ani Difranco * Cocteau Twins * Dar Williams * Joan Jett * Veruca Salt * Aleixa * Cradle of Filth * NIN * Massive Attack * Moby * Pet Shop Boys * Marilyn Manson * Bjork * Apoptygma Berzerk * Depeche Mode * Deathgirl.com * Poe * Tricky * Dish * Prodigy * Joydrop * Mary Prankster * Covenant * Blackgirls * Letters to Cleo * Smashing Pumpkins * Crutch * L7 * Bikini Kill * The Cranberries * Lords of Acid * Qkumba Zoo * Black Tape For A Blue Girl * Mediaeval Baebes * Tapping the Vein * Madonna * The Dead Milkmen * Caligo * VNV Nation * Indigo Girls * Kraftwerk * Siouxsie and the Banshees * Danny Elfman * Chainsuck * Bow Ever Down
READING!! Barbara Kingsolver * Arthur Golden * Jhonen Vasquez * Mark Danielewski * Patricia Cornwell * Edward Gorey * Poppy Z. Brite * Bram Stoker * William Shakespeare * Tim Burton * Robert Blake * J. K. Rowling * Wally Lamb * Susanna Kayson * Robert Frost * Agatha Christie * T. S. Eliot * Roman Dirge * Inga Muscio * The Onion * The Weekly World News * anything rabidly feminist
MOVIES!! The Boondock Saints * Rocky Horror Picture Show * Tankgirl * The Cell * Nightmare Before Christmas * Mulholland Drive * A Fish Called Wanda * Fight Club * Sleepy Hollow * The Craft * Life Is Beautiful * Pink Flamingos * Go! * The Matrix * Breakfast Club * Edward Scissorhands * Run Lola Run * But I'm a Cheerleader * Convent * 10 Things I Hate About You * Chicago * Memento * Bandits * Requiem for a Dream *
2010/01/03 09:41 Hmm, still quiet here on the iam front. I mostly reactivated to get access to pictures stored on here that I don't have anywhere else, but since I'm here I might as well say something. So...here I am! Wow!
Broad strokes life update: after five years, I left Scott. The reasons are complicated and painful, and left me questioning if I am capable of being in an intimate, committed relationship...but the blame was certainly not all with me. Leaving someone you love is like performing a self-amputation. I've cut off two of my own limbs now, and I never want to do it again.
In an act of recovery and self-discovery, I moved to South Korea to teach English for a year. I like it. I'm not gaining quite what I expected from the experience, but in an unexpected bonus, I found a fetish community, gained a 'daddy', have learned some interesting things about myself, and am perpetually covered in bruises and bite marks. Again, not exactly a forseen outcome of this journey, but a fantastic one.
I don't suppose this will be read by many people, but if you do, would you leave a note to say "I was here"? It would help me gauge if I want to keep this account active.
2006/11/18 07:07 ugh. slept badly. very cold. and i never seem to sleep soundly when i have to work early the next day. that applies extra when the next day is a double.
weird dreams...patrick passing me on the street telling me he really is a vampire...me going on missions smuggling people across the border...me having a private investigator check up on my man and uncover that he wants to leave me for someone else...THAT hurt so much it woke me right up. and now its barely 7 AM and i must work...
my boss is definitely a total self-centered prick when it comes to scheduling. at least there's not much to actually DO today, it'll just be LONG. and so will tomorrow.
2006/11/14 07:32 again with the letting iam lapse. i might just delete this page...time was i loved it and checked it every day and posted everything on here, but it looks like very few people i know are still active at all. guess everyone's moved to LJ and myspace, huh?
if anyone's reading...still working at CVS on 11th and Washington. still with Scott. down a few piercings, courtesy of my dentist and my eroding gums, but who's counting?
lately i've been getting back in touch with people i used to be quite close to, but who i havent seen in a while. so if that describes you, feel free to jump on the bandwagon and message me. ;-)
ok, so i havent been on here for months and months....and it looks like not many other people i know have been posting either, so that's ok. everyone's expanding into myspace and livejournal and all those other goodies, and i dont really use them either...why do i even pay for DSL anyway?
lessee. brief update. i'm currently in the best relationship of my life (apparently its possible to be in love without constantly having your guts ripped out! who'd have thunk?) and that makes all the other shit i'm putting up with seem ok. i hate CVS and i'm leaving by the end of the year, when i will start grad school to get my masters in education so i can teach high school english. scott and i are getting a place together this fall, which will be kind of a first for both of us (he's never lived with a lover, i did it once for maybe a month, with disastrous results) and we're both looking forward to picking out a place together....he wants a dog, i want a porch or a yard, and as we both work southward of the city, we'll probably end up in south philly in a little 2-3 bedroom rowhome piece of heaven. living alone is too damn expensive, thats for sure, but i'm glad i did it.
mod related news: i had to retire my lip rings for the sake of my gums, but i find i'm secure enough to still like myself without them. considering getting a genital piercing since scott is currently healing an ampallang, but there's nothing i seem to really want. maybe a christina.
/end update for today. gotta mail my taxes and get to work. peace out, y'all.
