I've been down since day one. iHung when it was just some kids behind a barn. IAM when it was free. BME when it was Shannon. When Church of Bod Mod was going to be our salvation. When piercings in Columbus meant Piercology, and never Evolved. Piercology before it was staffed by a bunch of total assholes. When hooks came from a fishing supply company, not a fancy suspension supply site. I loved when everything was new and exciting. I hated when it turned into a one-up contest, who could get to the biggest size. Who could do the craziest suspension with the least hooks. Who could be the most extreme.

I owe my life to a few people who helped me make it through. I'm thankful that BME connected me with them.

i read through some of my old messages in my iam thing. discussions with glider about some technical ideas he had. tons of messages from events that i attended or was invited to. flirtations with internet girls. helping friends and strangers with lots of things, from programming to becoming vegetarian to guns. tons of messages from others helping me, with stuff like finding jewlery. community and friends.

coming back here is like opening a time capsule which contains a snapshot of my life as it was many years ago in a different world. its really eerie. i feel like i never really left this community, but i sure didn't stay "in the loop" because i just couldn't keep up in the pissing contest and still be an adult with a decent job and stuff. sometimes i wish i would have never left this whole scene, and some times i'm kindof glad that i did.

my life has really changed from the last time i was here. changed for the better; i'm much happier, stable, secure, and friendlier than i ever was. if you're still here and you still remember me, send me a message before i drift away again...

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