2006/02/06 06:38 so my account expires in a little over a week. and i'm not going to renew. most of you know my myspace page, and some of you lucky devils are even friends with me!
email - mrs_s_l_caldwell@yahoo.com
aim - lifetimelolita ( personal )
aim - evereadyexpsteph ( work )
so yeah. keep in touch.
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2006/01/09 19:06 kitty!! is on her way here for meat!!!! mmmmmm meeeeeaaaat.
[lime] 2005 a retrospective [/lime]
2006/01/03 11:41 this last year has been fucking awesome. recap as follows:
january -
i moved in with kitty and tried to prep myself for the move to the east coast. my friend luisa gave me a car, so i did a lot of stuff to make sure it was cross-country trip worthy.
february -
wrapped up my job, had good times with kitty and tried to hang out with my friends as much as possible. jesse had some health issues and i found out that he wasn't going to be flying out to drive with me to philly.
march -
shawn flew out to surprise me at my going away party, kitty bought me a fucking SUPER SWEET lime green ipod, had an awesome going away party, with rad cake, good good friends, and lots of drinks. i made the drive from la to philly. stopped to see my mom and my friend alli, and didn't fall asleep at the wheel once! march was a little weird with getting settled in philly, trying to find a job, and dealing with jesse and our issues. leah left shawn that month, and that made things not only weird but stressful. i finally found a job, albeit one that i hated. i continued to go on interviews, and find a better job.
april -
continued the job search, went on an interview that started the process of opening a restaurant and one of the worst people i've ever had to work for. struggled to make things happen with the restaurant, and basically busted my ass on a daily basis for a guy who didn't appreciate the shit i was doing. i did have good times with shawn, we drank a lot, and ate good food. comfort was definitely the word for the month.
may -
life was still tough. the restaurant opened and jesse and i slowly made our way to repairing our relationship. it was slow going, but god damn nice to be back with the boy i loved. the restaurant sucked, we had no business, and scott was proving himself to be a complete idiot. weekends were spent with jesse, and during the week things were starting to become stressful at home. scar wars was an awesome relief to the madness, and it was great to see all my boys and girls!!
june -
philly was leaving me starry-eyed. i loved it. but i was torn between there, and where jesse and my heart were. it was becoming obvious to me that where i was working was not somewhere that i would have a lasting job at. i was counting down the minutes to when i could hop in the car and go see jesse. shawn and i weren't having a good time of it. i was unhappy with the living situation, and he was unhappy with me, and how things were going. when jesse came down, i had even more fun in philly, and loved going out and doing things with my boy when i could.
july -
things personally were amazing. jesse and i were talking seriously about our lives, what we wanted to be to each other, and what we were capable of having together. we talked about getting married and decided that its what we both wanted. i made some decisions, talked to some friends about the decisions, and told shawn. it didn't go well. i struggled thru work and made plans to move to new jersey.
august -
things at home were stressful. i was unhappy, shawn was unhappy. i didn't want things to be weird, but i wanted to be happy, and it wasn't working out that way in philly. i ended up moving to new jersey and things were a bit stressful, but we made it work. the job i was going to have when i moved fell thru, so i began the great job hunt for the second time. it was stressful, and i went on a lot of interviews, and got very lost several times, because i had no idea where i was going in new jersey. i got hired at an IT company, it was pretty scheisty. so i continued to look for another job. avail played we went to go see them, and the show was amazing!
september -
things with jesse were amazing, i couldn't of been happier. i interviewed for a job that sounded awesome, and got it. i started work and things started to calm down for me. i felt happier at my new job, and jesse and i were getting along better than ever. i settled into the house, went to philly to pick up the rest of my things, and started to call jersey my home.
october -
my favorite month every year, was amazing. we found out we were going to be moving into an amazing house in paterson with our current room mates and one more person, rob. we picked out furniture, decided on a paint color, and started planning out our near future. we were both getting excited about on with things, and starting our lives. we both had our birthdays, we celebrated halloween, and had a great month.
november -
the beginning of the month started out great. we started packing and getting rid of stuff we didn't need. we found out we would be moving thanksgiving weekend, so we planned a lot around that. on the 13th i got sick. ended up in the hospital, and had to have surgery. it was scary and weird, and i was out of work for a week. everyone was really sweet and helpful during the week i was out, and i got a lot of sweet phone calls and a few people sent flowers. being out of work made me crazy, but jesse was also off that week, and we got to spend a lot of time on the couch cuddling and watching movies. we talked a lot about getting married, and made the decision to do it the day after thanksgiving. it was low-key, but awesome.
december -
woah. this month was a whirlwind, i shopped, i drank, i shopped some more. we went to eat at an amazing restaurant in berkley heights called the trap rock brewery. good good good food. amazing beer. xmas came and went, and all the shopping was worth it. everyone had a great xmas and got stuff they wanted and can use. we ate and drank a lot of amazing stuff. times with family and friends were good. i missed my friends a lot, but my new family is pretty awesome. new years eve was rad, we drank and ate tons. good times were had by all.
in summation, i love my life. for all the regrets and hard feelings that have been felt, given, and taken for granted, i couldn't be happier with my choices. i'm in love, and loved. happy in an amazing house, i have amazing people in my life who have stuck by me thru thick and thin, and everything about who i am is rewarding and fucking awesome. if 2006 is anything like 2005, i'm gonna have no complaints!
