Neilsuarez   Southern Maryland Make that money workin dat 9 to 5 shakin ma azz  Lucky charms or captain crunch? Lucky charms Captain Crunch/w crunch berries View Results Forgive the past and let it go, for it is gone. "Everything here is eatable. Even *I'm* eatable. But that, children, is what we call 'cannibalism,' and is in fact frowned upon in most societies." ~Willy Wonka, Charlie and the Chocolate Factory Im all for spirituality and study a course in miracles. I absolutly cannot stand religion in any shape or form especially christianity,Islam and judeaism. If you want to find God then look in a mirror or better yet inside yourself. God, enlightment, heaven or whatever you want to call it will never be found in a book, building or a special designated piece of land. I do hpwever respect practices that promote peace like buddism and A course in miracles. Im not Black, or African. Im an american. The only time I do consider myself one or the other is when im filling out an aplication for labels sake or trying to get a scholorship. Even then Il probably select Latino or hispanic. I am disgusted by MAINSTRAM black america. There is a spiritual bondage within the community that keeps them from moving forward. - in physical form this manifest itself as "the ghetto".on the level of the mind they have become like the archatypical white man they once despised and are extreamly judgmental. Notice how negative and destructive a heavily populatd black environmet tends to be. Even other blacks notice this and talk joking about big black crowds not realizing the significance of there observation. As long as they are unwilling to FORGIVE as a community it will continue to not move forward. Militant vegans... you mean well but your annoying. Lead by example and shut up. I like girls but my boyfriend takes up most of my time. We are in an open relationship because true love in unconditional inclusive and not exlusive.I hate double standards. Im opinionated. but im also probably one of the most easy going compromisng people you will ever meet. I breakdance and am in a band. I mostly just play for myself but if I can ever get a decent group together i just may do something with my musical abilty. MUSIC Alexisonfire, City and Color, Glassjaw, Head Autimatica, Thursday, Chiodos, Circa Survive, Taking Back Sunday, Tool, The Bloodhound Gang, Bloc Party, Wumpscut, Thrice, Saosin, Underoath, boards of canada, Mudvayne, Emanuel, Finch, Gatsbys American Dream, Missy Elliot, Gorrillaz, Killswitch Engage, Matisyahu, Underoath, Teagan and Sarah, P.O.D., Fallout Boy(before they blew up on the radio), Bjork, Fiona Apple, Black eyed Peas, The Bled, The edison glass, gym class heroes, Lupe Fiasco, Paromore, Maximo Park, Blonde Redhead, Autecre, Luisine Mods- 1 inch lobes Standard carlidge 4 gauge septum 8 gauge P.A. Tiger strips(left arm) Puzzles pieces representing the idea that we are separate individuals butin fact that separateness is an illusion. Our bodies are an illusion and made up mostly of empty space. we are all expressing differnt facets of the same mind and are ONE. Crop circles starting at shoulders and going down left arm. the idea came to me after repeated attemots to fit in but never really beonging. feeling "alienated" even in a community of "like minded individuals" Phases of the moon down my spine 11/21@21:13: (non-iam)*29 (Zombieville) 11/07@23:34: GB3*2 (Zombieville) 11/07@22:08: boyscout (Athens) 11/03@20:43: d8withthenight (San Francisco) 10/24@10:30: Adventurous*3 (Ottawa) 10/18@19:28: steve2k100 (Manchester) 10/13@14:57: Pookii (Bradenton) 10/05@6:43: toxic_sunset (San Antonio) 9/30@22:22: success breeds envy (Alexandria) 9/25@3:51: maniabandita*2 (Poland) 9/25@3:08: septumuk*2 (London) 9/25@1:27: mommy2sophia (Long Beach) 9/20@2:03: subcision*3 (Philadelphia) 9/17@3:32: prettyinplaid*2 (Toledo) 9/17@2:18: ChtiPierced*2 (Boulogne) 9/17@2:04: Mxx Urban*2 (Mexico) via main page 9/17@1:04: DANCEHALLneil (Dover) via main page 9/17@1:00: nobcatz (Fukuoka) 9/17@0:58: Skittles5000*3 (Maplewood) via main page My experiences: My very stressful P.A. Experience Friends of friends of friends... Daddy! Beautiful Organic jewelry. I rock his stuff in my face. Someone who undrstands and totally gets me. FINALLY Box of sharp objects- what a beautiful thing.

Mods Puzzle pieces blkwrk neg space Pzzle pieces: to remind me that we only think we are separate. we are not. face ...: ... Right Arm Midview, first part of sleeve: Crop circles, custom Um... my dog? XXX Hes a poodle Bejon mix and he's mine. I wanted a husky but you know how that goes...: Max back I was really drunk and almost passed out: The different phases of the moon( or chocolate chip cookies if your an asshole) Tiger stripes Ink Junkies. Puzzle pieces Neg space and blk work: Left Arm Mod Page: 1 2

Marijuana talk with friend

2009/09/16 21:19 (Me)Its what you make of it. If you make it make you stupid then that's all you will get out of it. But it has more uses for benefit then harm. Unlike many things legal here in the U.S. (Friend)Neil, I have nothing against it. I'll have one puff at a party if it's past around. I don't understand what you mean by "If you make it make you stupid..." I don't have to do anything except have more than one toke and it makes me stupid all on it's own. Or more acurately, semi comatose. You are conscious of your limit and respect that(im assuming) That in turn makes you a mature responsible person. Of course your gonna have fun and go beyond that point from time to time but if you do it to the point that it becomes destructive its not the marijuana... its you. If I take a few puffs before I read its like my mind is projecting the images from the book onto the space surrounding my room. Its nice. A few more puffs and the words float off the page and dissapear I might as well be stupid but I dont let it take me there. If you feel like your doing something wrong then you will be paranoid. what the pot does to you depends on your outer actions and you inner state of mind but ultimatly you are always in control in one way or the other of your state of being. if you let it make you stupid then its because you allowed it to make you that way. Sometimes stupid is a good place to be. Often times not. Its up to the user after a certain point of exposure everyone knows their limits and for some its not smoking at all. THE PROBLEM IS Those people that know their limits sometimes try to impose there limits on others. Just because it makes them stupid... it makes everyone stupid... or a loser with no ambition. But they are just projecting. Life doesnt work that way My ex has high energy high anxiety. His base tolerance is high. Smoking actually calms him down and makes him more focused. If I smoked as much as he did I would be a vegetable. But for him its either spend alot of money and deal with insurance companies to get a perscpiption or grow his own pot which cost him virtually nothing. He is one of the most grounded people I know. Post/View Comments (1)

Christians are annoying

2009/09/14 11:10 I dont really hate Christians but they annoy the hell out of me. They view God as something separate from themselves and put themselves above everybody else that doesnt believe in "him". They view the devil as something separate from themselves and blame him for everything that goes wrong instead of looking into the dephs of there own ego and realizing all that is wrong with the world is a manifestation of unconscious thought forms within the dephs of there ego.(the devil is me something to beleive in) they view heaven as something separate from themselves instead of looking int the dephs of there own immortal spirit. They completely ignore the hell that they have created for themselves and everyone else around them. Most have no real grasp on spirituality and can rarely tell you the difference between their spirit and soul. Their whole belief system is based on duality and the idea of separation. Exoteric acts rarely if ever get anyone closer to God. Their whole image of Jesus and who he was is completely backwards and it only takes a bit of shallow interest and research on the man and the bible to realize most of whats taught is wrong. I HATE RELIGION. Post/View Comments (0)

2009/08/20 17:42 Fat people complaining and saying "I sure cant wait for the summer to be over. Whew"! It makes me want to get a big, bright, SUNNY orange ball and kick it into their stomach. No offense, half of my family is over weight. Post/View Comments (0)

Closeted gays.

2009/08/19 17:38 closeted gays like Clay Aiken... its like the closet door is wide open and everyone's looking in. I had problems with these gays the most when I was younger. I was not only more masculine but i really didnt give a fuck. any interaction with me would surely out them..... BUT EVERYBODY ALREADY NEW. I understand everyone needs there time but when you go as far to get pissed off and offensive at other people because they wont believe your lie then it becomes a problem. So fast forward to now... Am i supposed to appreciate the fact that you spent days hunting me down on every social networking site ive ever been on because you finally want to fuck? What ever happened to "Hi. How are you? My name is... Do you remember me"? I was the only one you wouldn't talk to at lunch and now you want me to buy you lunch? You can go fuck yourself and your fierce "new" lifestyle with all of your fierce new twinky friends. :P Post/View Comments (0)

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