2009/12/07 23:17 ...but it's all good. I'm not sure how much I'm, actually, contributing to BME or IAM for that matter. I wish I could contribute something in the least bit helpful but all I've got is working, raising kids & trying to remain myself in a world full of people that want you to change.
It's all I've got and that's okay with me. 
So, I went to the doctor yesterday because of some weird back issue I was having. (what the heck? I've NEVER had back issues before.) The doctor not only told me that it was a series of Trapezius spasms that was causing me pain when I swallowed or stood up straight. Ugh. Bed rest that day and 2 additional days. (6, 7 & 8th)
Right now, I'm inhaling the awful yet oddly sweet smelling Icy Hot that I've rubbed on my shoulders. Meh.
Luckily, platform at work was able to give me two days off. BUT...I can still work on my normally scheduled days off to make up at least 2 of the 3 days off. *whew* AND since I work for a call center, the client is giving us a major incentive to work christmas eve, christmas and the day after - which I'll work with not so much as a negative peep.
On a completely unrelated note, it looks like the girls' mom is headed back to Michigan when they have winter break. Man, talk about ripping the heart right out of my chest. For those of you that don't know, I have no children of my own and when I began dating and later marrying my husband, those kids became the center of my universe -- they're such great kids, all 4 of them.
So, knowing that they're leaving right before the holidays...man, that just breaks my heart. I wish there was something I could do to convince their mom (who I'm actually friends with) to leave them with us for the rest of the school year. It's going to be so odd waking up and not making pancakes or cereal or brushing someone's hair and adding silly random ponytails here and/or there, helping with homework, coloring or singing silly songs on Nickelodeon.
I guess Frank is going to be on the receiving end of all this motherly-ness that I have built up in me. I'm not sure how he'll take it but something tells me he'll be okay with it after he breaks out of the depression after the girls leave.
How do you tell a kids mom that you don't know how you're going to exist without having her children around you 24/7 like usual? I mean, I know things will suck and then they'll improve, etc etc. But I just started to feel like a mom and the girls are super attached to my mom. It was a really hard decision for their mom to make and I realize this. She doesn't want to stay here in Arizona (her family is in Michigan)and she feels that the kids should go. I mean, who am I to argue? I'm not their real mom, right?
Grr. Then why does it hurt so freakin' much when I think about them leaving?
EDIT:
Thank you to the wonderful soul who put some time on my account. I appreciate it more than you know. :)
