AngstNorway, Kristiansand87 days till my birthday.
I don't need drugs! Im BIPOLAR! :D
18,605 pagewiews IAM Angst ;) IAM 24 years old Lives Mo i RanaMandalKristiansandNorway Phone +47 91188455 / +47 91130187
Email SavageDesigns@gmail.com
IAMloving my current FasciNation Morten Abel IAM Androgynous
IAM A gay boy Inside [beautiful to be understood]
IAM A complete and UTTER bastard
IAM Bipolar
IAM Exactly whatever I want to be!
IAM Attentionseeker
IAM Always trying to grow
IAM Very bad at making friends
IAM Down to earth
IAM Humble
IAM A Child
-No seriously-
IAM trouble girl IAM Miss insecurity
IAM Not a professional piercer IAMNot a model IAMNot on a firstname basis with anyone here IAM Appearently not good enough
But I would like to be
My body hates my mods
And I never do anything right
So I am here to learn
I am Bipolar/Borderline, which in short is a mental state that makes me very hard to be around. I switch from happy to sad to angry in a moment, and it's hard for people to understand my behaviour, so it isolates me. Im very often lonely, which I hate. And living alone is terribly hard. Stil I love playing with my friends when they are in town<3
I'd like nothing more than to have more friends, but Im afraid Im a bit to wierd for normal people. I just dont relate. And I hate a lot:/
I can't handle being spoken to harsly, and I often feel invisible. I talk to myself, and I have pretend friends.
I go though periods of extreme depression, to delusions of greandeur, and both hurts the same. Stil it makes me what I am. An Artist.
And I have nothing to loose.
Mew and me<3 We're both models and we know what we do ;)
Metamorphosis
Pulling
First hook ever<3 : [20 years old] So nervous -and it was nothing! :D
Branding
Betrayer of Satan : [19 years old] When I first contacted Wings of Desire back in 2004 it was to volonteer for their performance at Oslo fetish. I was lucky enough to get the branding I wanted for years.
Fangs
Braces of, and fangs. : [19 years old] I got my braces of, and travelled to Bodø to get my fangs done. The dentist told me he'd never made fangs before, so I actually helped him mould them into the exact size and I shape I wanted, small but fingerlickin' sexy.
Name Change
Afther fighting with the law for over a year [19 years old]: I got my names right. BoyGirl. Artist. Superstar.
Tattoo
My First Tattoo=)
: [18 years old] Thank you so much Øystein from Tattoo Nation for giving me this for free! You are such a great sport!
Designer Vagina
My circumsition : [17 years old] This is not pr0n ya pervs=) These are bloody gory operation pictures, and they will not get you hot.
Bridge
Spur of the moment!
: [17 years oId] I had planned so long to get an offcentre lippiercing and when I got to the local piercer I just changed my mind and asked to get "one between the eyes" instead=) I never regretted it, even though I had to take it out. I'll get it again soon hopefully. =)
Ear studs
Fucking Salon
: [16 years old] I got my ears shot through at a salon. I was young and stupid *Stil am* It was sore and hurt for many weeks and I had to take them out, I stil have big ugly lumps where they used to be. Trés disgusting.. Tried to re-pierce them in a desperate attempt to hide the nastiness but had to take it out again, sad thing.
Braces
BRACEFACE
: [16 years old] I got my braces on because my teeth was so close they got crooked.
Nipple Piercings
Not for the Sweet and Innocent.
: [The day of my 16th birthday] I skipped school to go to our local piercer and got my nipples pierced. I brought two friends, Aline and Benedicte=) It was the most painful experience I've ever experienced, and I'll do it as many times I have to to get it right. pierce, take out, pierce, take out... etc etc..
Earlobe stud
My first mod ever!
: [About 10 years old] I got my ear pierced at a salon. I only wanted one ear because I didn't want to look like a girl ;D Notice the long nail folks! I *heart* my strong nails.
MOVING OUT
2009/10/04 22:16 BME has been great, and thanks for following my life for the past four-five years; But time has come for me to move out of IAM, and get a place of my own.
I present to you; www.AngstOfNorway.com 100% crazy and 100% nice
2009/07/29 21:52 Allright. Having just come home from Oslo SusCon 09, I've been browsing some of the pages of the other IAMers from the event and it really sucks that it's sort of died. I blame the whole WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED TO SHANNON-thing... To which I am stil completely lost.
Anyways.
I'll try to cap up the whole last year as shortly as possible.
Last time I wrote I was in a really crazy place in my life. But Im back to "normal" again. Group therapy held me a half a year. And during that time I though it would be smart of me to get a boyfriend so I could also work on that.
And I found me a boy, Poi, and asked me if he wanted to be my boyfriend for a month, and he said yes. Turned out- he was rich! (parents where millionaires fo shizzle) and I got a whole new lifestyle.
He asked me to move in with him after one week, and then my life was silky smooth and filled with carelessness and luxury. For almsot exactly TWO months, until he suddenly came in the door and broke my heart out of nowhere.
But what can you do?
So I was thrown into the same old shithole of a life I had again within seconds. And I was a mess.
Great timing as my group therapy ended the next week.
And long story short. I had a little "incident" in which I got comitted for the first time in my life. Then I got out. And got comitted _again,_ this time for almost two weeks. And then I got a meeting with my WONDERFULL psychiatrist. And he just. Flipped the switch on me, with a few simple lines he reminded me who I was again. And I just. Found myself. And was ready to go home.
Now I live at my old apartment again, and WORK on it insted of letting it bring me down.
I have changed a bit. Mind you I had hoped the therapy would help me get over my shyness and insecurity but alas, no such luck. But I have become a bit less extreme I think.
From now on, I'll try to be nice.
For instance I am trying to be friends with Poi stil, even though it's hard. But I try and try to work with it all the time.
Also I had a brief thing with the boy from a few entries back (love staring you in the face) and he was fucking AWSOME^^ left me with what, fifteen bruises? yumzz...
I'll be working on myself for one more year now, at gateakademiet, and then we'll se where life takes me.
I also had a though today that maybe I should try going to some theater classes or something to try to get less shy. So that next year I go to the suscon I will actually talk to someone. At lest more that one minute at a time before I freak.
On other notes. I got introduced to /b/ almost a half a year ago, and Im hooked on it now. total oldfag.
or maybe I should put it this way-
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I've also gotten quite involved with C|-|4|V()7()6y so if there are other 4|V()|V5 out there give me a hollar
I've been feeling like shit the last week and a half. Can't sleep, wake up from nightmares during the night. walking around as a zombie loathing my new self for changing into something I don't want to be.
Everything that has happened to me lately. I've felt trapped in myself. But now Im gonna get things straight again.
I made a decision not to change to much. Im sticking to the list of things I promise not to do again though, and adding two more points to it:
11. Breaking into peoples houses to collect evidence and/ or stolen stuff to return to their owners
12. Using firearms while drinking
Anyways. This song hit me like a hole in the head because I feel like it's me in the video, and the song is sung to ME.
(that's a rather crappy version because the official garou cannel won't let you embedd things. go to here for the real shit)
Dream yourself awake Can't make it through the night
Wicked dreams will haunt you
When the morning light shines
You try to find your way outside
Just another day
You try to let them shine
The people disappoint you
Makes you wonder why you cry
You can almost see the end of you
Refrain :
So come on stand up
Yeah put your hands up
It ain't wrong to be strong
And it's gonna be done And then they won't come back to you
No no no no
Wake up
Try not to break up
If they're holding you down
Then you rise to the top
Cos you're a bad bad girl
And you just can't stop No no no
Give yourself a break
Listen to your heart
Let your conscience guide you Never let your guard down
Find out the best of you
Everything you do
And what is done to you
Doesn't have to change you It only makes you stronger and stronger
The more they take away from you
Refrain
You won't lead no beggars life
And you sure don't need their bad advice
Or their five cents worth of what they think of you
Sometimes they're not so into you
Keep your head up above that line, you know
Everybody loses sometimes
Shame shame shame
The things they've done to you
So, have you ever tried running away from love, only to find it staing you straight in the face?
I did, couple of days ago. He knows EVERYTHING about me. Even stuff that the people I've been living with for years dont know. A magic word made my brain run out my right ear, and I dragged him somewhere private to make out, and then it happened again. I couldnt do it.
And he said it was ok, and that he already knew- because you know, he knew! And he's given me all the time in the world. I have never met anyone like him before. And it's kinda fuzzing me out. So I told him that I needed to be alone.
Besides! he drinks white wine! and is OLDER than me, and studies, and plans to get a real important job one day. Just wouldnt feel right :S
I got 'til over chrismas to think about it.
But I think I just need to work on myself a while.
I made this list over things I shouldnt do again If Im gonna be a better person, you know, like Earl! And It's been keeping me in a pretty foul mood because I promised myself I wasnt ever gonna change, and that Im gonna become a terribly boring person If I lose my hate, bitterness and scense of wingelance. But then I started opening my mouth to Esperance (we pretty much come as a package by now) and she started laughing and assured me that I aint never gonna be boring.
I dunno. Im hating the thought of it.
Heres the list over things I promise never to do again: 1. Send people dead animals in the mail
2. Vandalise and/or crash other peoples cars on purpose
3. destroy homes
4. get people thrown out of home
5. make people miss their planes when going abroad
6. rob people
7. blackmail people with pictures
8. kick people in the head
9. put sensitive information out online
10. destroy lives
Don't you JUDGE ME!!!!
Anyway there is a hell of a good story behind every one of these poins. Just ask me. (about 1/3 cheaters 1/3 pedophiles 1/3 bullies)
Appearently, taking manners into own hands isnt very appriciated by the public, and it PISSES ME OFF. I really feel like I deserve to punish these people!
No one else has! To this day!
But now, if someone does something bad, my hands are tied.
I hate it.
Who the hell am I any more??
Anyway the hospital raised my therapytime from four months up to one year. So Im fucked now! So long!
Now it's exactly one week since I got attacked.
And one week of having to review to my own life has annoyingly enough managed to make me realize some things.
My mother told me once that everything was allowed in love and war (of which this was both) but that, I have now learned, is not the case.
Ingvld Pingvild told me about the Geneva convention, and I was alowed to cry in her lap a couple of hours.
The came monday, and I laid it all out at the asylum. Then we talked about it at school, and with the people at the museum<3 and of course with my friends:) which I by the way LOVE.
And blablabla of course, the most important thing off all. I downloaded the two first seasons of My name is Earl.
soehhh.. My name is Angst!
And Im just trying to be a better person.
BLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH!!!!!!
*grumbles*
But as you can se Im not exactly thrilled about it ;(
Anyways. I've watched the security tapes a couple of times now.
And yes. I was in love. and yes. I stil love him. but no.
Im gonna. let him go.
(I never knew true beauty until that day. A loveconfession)
Love is not love. love is pain. Love is awful.
But Im gonna. gonna. gonna. sacrefice it.
Let it go for now.
What I should have learned during this chapter: 1. If he doesnt call, it's beacuse he doesent think about you.
2. If he creates expectations for you (as in, Im gonna move out leave my girlfriend and get back together with you) and doessnt follow up, he doesent care about you, and thinks it's ok to dissapiont you.
3. "busy" is another wold for "bastard", and "bastard" is another word for the guy you're dating.
Hello gorgeous.
I just can't wait until you get over that jerk you where seing.
He sounds like a real douchebag!
Hope you'll get over him soon- you're way to good to be treated that way. Come and find me. Im out here waiting for you!
2008/11/29 10:16 Jessica got hers yesterday.
A little too much of the good stuff.
Yesterday a plane was supposed to lift of and go to Turkey, which he was supposed to get on. But he couldnt. So he left the airport, went straight to my school to drag me out of the classroom to beat me up. But I wasnt there, because we'd already left for the museum. He was told so by the staff at school, and he found me there. In the third floor. without any teachers and only three other petrefied students on their way out.
I was so alive...
And god I deserved it.
I don't know what to think about the situation yet.
My mom got angry and said I deserved it. And my dad sais Im so strong this shouldn't affect me at all. That I can just brush it off, and lick my wounds.
Then why did I spend all of last night batteling myself in my head about it?
I know I deserved it. But what would have happened if he found me just thirty seconds earier? I would have been ALL alone in the most far off room. Nobody would have heard my screams. Nobody could have helped me. The others where already on their way out of the floor.
I even sometimes wish he did. I need it, I think.
Because I dont feel anything anymore.
Do I really have no empathy for others?
I destroyed his life.
But I don't care.
Im changing my appearance now, because the girl with the blue hair is easy to pick out in a crowd. And Im moving out of town a couple of weeks.
And from now on Im packin', in case he or someone else comes after me again.
In one hour Im picking up my copy of the security cam recordings from yesterday.
Then It's out of my hands.
The way it is right now.
I long for something terrible to happen to me.
I welcome it.
After all the things that we been through
In the night I hear then talk
the coldest story ever told
somewhere far along his road
He lost his soul
To a girl so heartless
How could I be so heartless?
How can I be so heartless?
Now let me get this straight. I was like this, then this, and this and this and this. and I was fine with that.
But oh no-
YOU COULDNT DO IT IN PERSON!?
You had to TEXT MESSAGE BREAKUP? you FUCKUP!
oh my GOD I wanna THROW UP!
You couldnt even spell break right! b-r-a-k-e?
That's in your CAR dummy!
And Im not gonna take this disgrace
I'll be like mace in your face on myspace
just you wait to read the shit on you Im gonna blog about
You like TEXT so much?
HOW MUCH YOU LIKE IT NOW?
after TWO YEARS???
Im gonna blog and text and post and host, podcast your bastard ass from coast to coast.
I will. WHAT???
I'll use the same weapon agains you cuz I can type too
X-BF for ever DECK
(I was out for chrismasshopping. It was his birthday. I had invited him to se my exhibition. Waiting for his call.
Then I get a text message with knocks the wind out of me, and replaces the content of my stomac with a ton of bricks. My face goes numb. And all of a sudden Im sitting outside of the store shaking, with a bloody cellphone in my hand)
2008/11/15 16:26 It's done
I got it my way
Now all I need to do is sit down, relax and enjoy
and watch as the SHIT hits the fan.
Never fuck with NotSoFuckingJollyAngstInsaneClownPossePirate
On another note:
Both Raven and me got laid this week
How long will it take for us to start bitching and whining for sweet SWEET cawk again? one week? two? LOL we suck<3<3
I got fucked like Isabella got fucked by Jules in Pirates. All tounge and fists, and being tossed and placed around like an artist with his clay. Fucking sick<3<3<3
MOM STOP READING MY DIARY!!! :D YOU'LL GO BLIND!!! XD
Oh ya and I got a solo art-exhibition now at Samsen Kulturhus, go see it before december 4th!
2008/10/30 21:15 As some of you might know, Im a disaster happening to myself over and over again. Nowadays, my days in Angstlandia is spent at Eg mental hospital. Two days a week.
Today was special. very very special. After screaming hate and destroying the world verbally yesterday because, well, it's what I do. - I showed up at group therapy as a train wreck, and the asylum girls welcomed me into their arms.
The whole mood today was totally different than the other days (I've been with them one month now) and we just. kinda. bonded.
After creative class (where I by the way killed EVERYBODY in my painting) we broke the nr1 rule and ran away. Not to far though, just to the regular hospital to buy hot cocoa^^ And returned unnoticed by our guards after fifteen minutes or so.
It was wonderfull.
I felt so free.
They sang a song on the way down, Det einaste ho ønska seg, by Bjørn Eidsvåg. And I found it. A sunny day, sky without clouds, a problem free hour, in the company of friends. Sober but dizzy. Dizzy from happiness, because of peace. (It was never too much to ask)
[Call of The Search. We Found Her]
I was in Oslo last weekend.
Emilie Autumn is singing my songs through her.
Im working on destroying people now. And enjoying it. My friends, (and half of the asylum girls) support me.
And my doctor<3<3<3 says Im not directly cruel, just an interesting young girl with DIFFERENT oppinions of whats right and wrong. I disagree.
I know perfectly well what Im doing is wrong.
But I love it.
Doubth thou the Stars are fire
Doubth thou the sun doth move
Doubth truth to be a liar
But never doubth
2008/10/23 08:20 Im Back! And Im having SO MUCH FUN!
Im so MEAN!<3<3<3<3
Yesterday I was all like:
"Dinner and a movie? Dinner and a movie? Dinner and a movie?"
And I laughed. Laughted that all to familiar laugh that goes a little something like this:-- *ehem* I'MA GETTYHN LLLLAAYEEED 2NIITE!!!!! MWHOCHACAHCACACHACHACHAAAA!!!!!!!
But then I went naaaaaaaahhhhh fuck it. Not yet.
So I said no thanks, and went to help out at dyrebeskyttelsen, cuddeling the kittuhnz.
When I got home. I called Esperance, and took her out eatuhn, and then we went drinkuhn.
And then _HE_ walked in.
There is a saying in Norway that I can best translate to "dear children have many names" -And here is a few!
2008/09/07 21:43 Im single again... :( *sigh* It's been rough couple of weeks... One and a half year and one day. And now, it's over.
My heart is breaking, but it's stil beating. Dan Michael. Thanks for everything. I'll stil be loving your for a long time :'( *hug*
2008/06/20 17:48 Congratulations Norway!
Gays and Lesbians can now get married and adopt children and have all the same rights as heterosexuals. And It's about bloody time :D
It's been a long hard road. Good things happen to those who wait. I raise my glass to all of you, you know who you are!
If you want something done right, you gotta do it yourself ;p
They stole her. Those bastards actually stole her. Ember, my bike.
When I saw she was gone. oh god. I was ready to rip them apart, put their teeth on the sidewalk and kick them in. I was ready to kill. MY BABY! MINE! I MADE her, forged her with my bare hands, all by myself, my blood, tears and sweat. And I'd die before giving in to them.
It took me two straight days of walking around hunting for her, and hanging up forty phucking posters with a 1000nok reward..
After a week, they called. She was found. I ran. I held her in my arms again. fucked up. messed up real bad. but I will never give her up. Im gonna bring my baby back home. she's in the metalshop at school now. been fixing her up from scratch. gotten a new wheel, new coats of paint.
If you lose your way I'll carry home. She's my baby.
Ember is gonna be fine. Fine.
I'm never gonna let her go.
Dancing. I feel. You know, sometimes when you're drunk? you feel. Unexplainable. Well I do. And that's exactly how I've felt all day today. Exploding. I need to evolve. Make something new. The art. If you're not an artist you'd never understand how it drives you crazy. How it pushes you to keep going, through every day.
Who says there is no art in destruction? Destruction is crucial for new life.
Give me a workshop. God. I cried when I walked into the museum workshop last week (_long_ story) they had everything.
Give me a studio, give me the unlimited access. I felt so free.
I cant explain it.
There is a ghost bird in my apartment. It's here when Im not around and it's freaking me out. But I think I've found it now. I think it's dead in my lamp. And I cant decide if I want to toss it or use it.
When I get like this. Vertigo. Borderline. borderLIE! Impossible to be free. Caught in myself. I. It's a war in myself and it hurts.
Sometime I hurt just being myself.
And war is beautiful
Im sorry, Im not well. and I talk gibberish.
A few more days and Im stable again.
2007/10/16 17:02 Hokkey, so! about... hm hm hMM! FOUR months has gone by since I updated last OR WHAT?
And let me tell YOU something! NEVER trust a crazy landlord! To wrap it up in a hurry- my new landlord was flippin' mental and just took everything to far. He lied, demanded more money then agreed, threatened me and acted totally aggressive. He could look at the same leaking sink as me and look me straight in the eyes and say "No- The sink isn't leaking, you're lying!" at one point he almost attacked me! I had such a hard time with it I contacted a new psychiatrist and she helped me get a lawyer and a new place to stay<3. Now I'm all settled in and my life is back being nice to me<3
Me and my boyfriend have gotten a HEMSTER<3<3<3 (that's hamster for you non-cuddle speakers^^) Hemster is so nice<3<3 His name is Cookie Caramel __________ Lionsdale, and he is supercute! Talk about having so much personality in one little body- He is STUBBORN! And brave, and a sports fanatic! He's running in his wheel like crazy all day ever day^^
He got his name from his complexion, he is so adorable:)
More stuff worth mentioning is our trip together to Kristiansand zoo, and our weekend away camping<3<3<3 Together the two of us could take on the world, I swear... we saw lions, giraffes, buffaloes and lesbians<3, and petted goats, a pony, some bunnies<3<3 And we had a great time on the trip, making food together on the fire, washing for gold, putting up the tent and making camp, building a HUGE fort of sticks and driftwood, and driving to the store for ketchup^^
Schoolwise- when I started at this school I was a student in a college- now it's a university! :D talk about lucky haha^^
It got a status change in the beginning of the schoolyear, and we're reaping the benefits... which so far have only consisted of a free breakfast and lots and LOTS of candy ;p
Schoolwork is completely drenching me by the way, and I feel like I'm _always_ behind, and it consumes pretty much of my spare time as well:/
On a good note I recently went to Copenhagen, Denmark with my class, which was great fun, and I saw Muffe at his studio and got a new piercing for a modeling gig. I needed a piercing that would be visible from both sides of my face as I didn't know if I where doing a full face or a profile shot, so I decided to re-do my bridge. I didn't plan on keeping it since I need to wear sunglasses all the time on account of my eye-condition, but since I got it I've realized that maybe I don't need to use shades all the time! I've just gotten so accustomed to putting them on every time I stepped outside out of habit, and now when I don't it doesn't bother me to much:)
And now as I finish my post I have just ONE more thing I need to get off my chest:
Where is Shannon, and what is going ON with BME???
2007/06/03 21:05 Hoi polloy everybody! update time yet again!
Russe-time well over, Im left with lots of fun memories and good feelings:) Not so much partying at the end, but a kickass goodbye to everything at may 17th. Video on Youtube.
I was babtised Jihad for my russe-name^^
On a sad note, my grandmother passed away, and I went home for the funeral. I carried her coffin. Nice funeral. Family and stuff. Tears. You know. Not feeling to keen on going on about that, just.. yeah, it's over and done.
The week after the funeral I went to England, visiting my sis PIRATrosfoliea who studies in Oxford. Good times- goooood times!
P.S . Self-checkout at stores is porbably the BEST idea EVER! GO sansburys! Camden was lovely as ever. I saw The girl from bme who works there too -but didnt dare go say hi to her... *blush* ;p
"Two pints of lager and a packet of crisps please..."
A few hours after I got home to Norway me and my pews went to the Pirates of the carrabian 3 premeiere and made the papers... MIND YOU the BEST way to enjoy this movie is to GO DRUUUNK as I did^^
Just to CAPTAIN Jack Sparrow it up a bit^^ It was GREAT!
Captain kviteklitt and captain stinkypants say "YARR!!!"
-Now Im doing exam after exam at school. And after that Im FREEEEE to do absolutely nothing, become unemployed and out of school, money and a place to live.. o_0 ;p everything is going to be all right:)
Im going to get a great job and work my BOTTOM (look Im British) off all summer:) Im sure of it.
Other things that occupy me now is spreading the message of www.siJA.no -a site for GAY RIGHTS NOW! GAY RIGHTS FOR GAYS! and so on- More signatures more signatures!!! :D
Also Im quite hungry now! :D
Going to make me some pasta with cheesey pepper-sauce and parmesean YUUUUMMY!!!
2007/04/25 10:27 RAWR -let me tell you this! it's not easy being a russ all alone:S
You'd think getting the uniforms on and everything would make one feel more in a group but SKWIIK It's working pretty much the opposite way on me.
Stil:) it's nice:) I've always been alone but I have some friends to play with, thought not russ but they can play with me and do tasks with me as moral-support.
This far I've completed five:
1. flashed my b00bies in the cantine at lunchour
2. spent the night at a freshman of the opposite sex (Fey)
3. Ate 6 kinder-eggs and assembled the toys in 10 minutes *ugg...*
4. Ate a whole bag of bamsemush in 20 minutes *BARF!!!!!*
5. Stole a freshmans lunch out of his hands and ate it
Im such a SLOWPOKE!
Should definately do more:) once a day! it's FUN!!! ^^
all this stress has made me go into depression-land for about two weeks now, straining my nerves, schoolwork and relationship.
I luv my boy though. And once Im in happyland again and my brain doesent shut me down things will go back to normal:)
Funny how being invisible at school, feeling outside the big union of russ, having final exams is coming up, falling behind on schoolwork, my sister is lonely and my application to see her was rejected, and grandmother whom I've always have had a close relashionship with being close to the end (which ALONE is enough to break me) can fuck you up....?
POI! It's enough to make you go crazy! :O
WILD WOMAN ON THE LOOSE! :D
school-project: make a shamaness-outfit. real cat and bearskull on borrow from the school science-lab.
2007/04/11 20:01 Today is the first day of RUSSETIDA!!! Following the Norwegian custom I am now a RØDRUSS- FINALLY! :D:D:D
I got a kick-ass uniform and customizing is FUN^^
I have the metal pants and a black school-sweater that I'm supposed to use every day now for one month and a week without washing it (pe-eew!) and a t-shirt with a russe-che guevara print and a hat which really doesn't fit me right now on account of my dreads:)
2007/03/25 16:34 Morten Abel plays this thursday. I have the ticket, but Im still not decided if I should go. I feel like it's not up to me.
I don't know anything.
He used to be my hero, and my everything. For four years now. He's been dead to me since the revelation on the radio and I'm all alone.
I recent him for not talking to us. It makes him appear guilty. And I think he is. I really think he did it.
I wouldn't even forgive him if it was up to me.
So here comes the dilemma:
Do I differ between the artist and the person?
Can I really support him trough listening to his songs and watching his videos? I listened to him every day for years. I have all of his stuff. I was his biggest fan.
Where do I go from here?
Hurry someone and give me an answer before Thursday. do I go to his concert? yes or no.
*update* Taking Chaos's advice I went to the concert to see him. It gave me nothing: We had eye contact a second or so as I was all the way in the front, and he avoided my eyes. It's over now. A four year long relationship.
Don't forget me
Just let time decide
Let the oceans drain it
All the stars fall down
We both know the story
And how it ended
It's been nice to know you baby
But we'll never speak again...
2007/02/19 20:59 Hell HAS frozen over, and Satan IS giving away free sley-rides.
I am dating a christian. And we're in love.
Dan Plikael Dragonstead Lionsdale (diggin' the name!) AKA anarkyfish<3
Everytime I see him I. I. *muff*
I can be pervy and annoying and dumb and cute and pissed of and sad and happy with him just the same. I really admire him<3
Kjære pus, nå har vi levd sammen i sus og dus i mange dager - uten alt for mange plager. Men nå er tiden kommet og 14 februar er her, uten at jeg har penger til hverken smykke blomst eller klær. Så jeg tok meg den frihet og ryddet leiligheten din. Tok oppvasken, og gjorde alt så fint. Nå gjennstår bare å se (og for all del ikke le - jeg er ingen mester med rim) Vil du være valentinen min?
I love you kittiepews<3
Next SusDay is april 1. I WANNA GOOOO SO BAAAD!!! *claps hands* I think I'll sign up right now and just live on love and carrots until next month. some sacrifices have to be done ya know! Ooohh YØØEEAAHHH I wanna spin round round baby round round! I wanna play so hard my skin rips!!! It's gonna be fun seing everybody again too! havent played with morten hardcore in ages and HE IS MØY FRIIEEEND jøø!! hope he'll be there. yuppyuppyupp!
Of all the thing I miss, I miss The Passion Of Teh King of Teh PEWS[tm] teh most! ;p
2007/01/03 21:57 Chrismas whent by, I survived *ninjadance*
I've played a lot of scrabble...
Today I got a private tour of the new policestation even though it's not opened yet, because Im leaving tomorrow for mandal again.
(I even got a t-shirt from them o_0)
