My application deadline for the college I want to transfer to is coming up faster than I thought it would. It's March 1st. I know I can do everything by then, but just seeing that deadline is kinda flipping me the fuck out.

I basically just need to get my portfolio together. I already have one letter of recommendation completed, and two other teachers have already agreed to write them, but I'm just waiting for the actual letters. I also need to put together some of my photography work along with some written stuff.

Whenever I think about this kind of stuff, I just sort of freeze. It's like this big, "Oh shit, I hope I don't fuck this up!" kind of feeling. And about something incredibly important, too.

I'm also a little worried that I'm putting all my eggs in one basket. I've been focusing on the one school I want to get into. I've visited this one school, know what requirements I want for this one school, even picked out an apartment I want to live in near that school and signed a lease. What if I don't get in? Am I going to end up just sitting around for another year or so?

Ugh. Ugh. UGH. I need to breathe. Breathe.

Breathe...