I collect holes. It may not be a vast collection thus far, but I enjoy watching it grow.
My skin is untouched, free from pigments and noticeable scars. This will all change in time, I assure you.
Diagnosis::
o [1.6mm] Industrial
o [1.6mm] Tragus
o [1.6mm] Labret *New*
o [2.4mm] Septum *New*
o [4mm] Tongue
o [6mm] Inner Conch
o [14mm] Lobe
o [16mm] Lobe
Prescription::
o [1.2mm] Nostril x2
o [1.6mm] Bridge
o [1.6mm] Rook
o [1.6mm] Venoms
o [1.6mm] Nipples
o [3mm] Helix
o [3mm] Tragus
o [8mm] Labret
o [20mm] Lobes
o Tongue Split
Fatalities::
o [1.2mm] Nostril x4
o [1.6mm] Vertical Industrial
o [2.4mm] Labret
(non-iam) stalked me at 2/10@1:15*101 Iselilja stalked me at 2/09@19:44*3 Modyourbod4rillz stalked me at 1/11@17:56 famous_punx stalked me at 1/06@4:54 pixel stalked me at 12/06@7:30*30 MrHorus stalked me at 11/30@18:02*4 barcode stalked me at 11/24@18:01 Hooked stalked me at 11/24@7:57 MobyK stalked me at 11/24@4:37*25 Necrophilia stalked me at 11/24@3:08
Dro0gs
HolierThanThou Studio of choice
Lucy Zombie bashing dyke ^_^
Stephy Thee power metal apprentice :D
James Left tongued XD
Tanya PF babe :]
Theresa A new friendly face :]
Kayley E-baking buddy :D
John Durante Inspirational
I can do overly saturated or none at all. Nowhere inbetween >_>
2009/01/14 00:20 Do you ever feel like you're so alone, so hopelessly fucking alone for so long that it makes you wonder if that feeling will ever stop? I feel numb.
New years
2009/01/02 22:15 Lately I've been reflecting on my past, what better time than new year to analyse my findings.
My life currently feels unsettled. I know where I want to be, but every step towards it reminds me just how far I am from achieving it, and helps to dampen any motivation I once had.
Secondary school was for me, years of 'small town' syndromic clones who managed to bully me to the point at which I left. Since then I've barely gone more than a week without an anxiety attack. I had held such great hopes for college life being different from all that. Though we where all now given the responsibilities of adults, we found it within ourselves to behave like children. The bullying continued. In the moment of discovering that someone had needlessly destroyed £100 worth of my study books, along with my notes and recent assignments I realised something- I hadn't escaped the small town at all, I'd simply found myself in another. Maybe that's the reason, maybe it's the day-to-day shit that gets shoveled into my face that's preventing me from achieving as I wish to be. But that is no excuse, as so many others have it so much worse than I do and yet manage to achieve great things with their lives. I had intended on going to Napier university in Edinburgh to study after I'd finished my course, but a combination of extremely high qualifications needed and my general lack of achievement makes that notion seem almost impossible. If I can somehow get my head down and get enough points then I'll finally be free of this place and these people. Though, if I am unable to achieve the grades then maybe I am undeserving of a place there, and I should continue to study here until I have earned it... Time will tell.
Friendships- many have come and gone in the past couple of years. Some of which I'm feeling better to have lost than others, some people I truly care about I no longer see... 2009 is going to be a time for me to sort out my social life, to try and gain a healthy balance again. I intend (and have begun) to meet the people I miss and try to see them more often. Also, I hope to meet new people. It's so rare that I get opportunities to meet people outside of my current social circle. Messages are always appreciated :) haha.
Relationships. (yes, I've now began categorising these paragraphs XD) After a three year long-distance relationship ended I soon found myself falling for someone else. Elise was possibly one of the best things to happen to me, and unfortunately because of the way I acted and the situations we where in it lasted only a few months. I still have her friendship, which for me is invaluable. However, the way in which I conducted myself durring our relationship was unforgivable. Because of my problems she got hurt. It has taught me to sacrifice opportunities if I am in danger of hurting them. For that reason I am remaining single until I feel that I am strong enough to support and love someone as they deserve.
I said I wasn't going to do the new years resolution thing, but while I was writing I thought of other goals I wish to achieve in 2009, so ... here goes:
::New Years Resolution::
-Progress with studies and go on into further education.
-Make new friends.
-Make an extra effort to see old friends.
-Loose weight.
-Be more daring with my appearance.
-Try new things.
-Start sketching/painting again.
-Fix my headbox to a point at which I am capable of loving again.
I know some of those things are almost beyond my control, but they are things I want for 2009 :)
![TanyaPF babe :]](http://iampix.bmezine.com/nopic.jpg)
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