Living a conformist life (ask me about it, it's hilarious).
Passionate.
I care- to the point of being so angry that I stop.
The list of music I listen to is massive.
Am in one place for more than a year, I think.
I am.
Everything means nothing, and anything can mean whatever you want it to mean. Could you handle the full effect of your life without boundaries? My life is a series of disjuncted moments strung together in uneven time. I don't make plans, I make it up as I go along. I wonder randomly to and fro, contemplating the infinite possibilities of the day.
I use my tattoos for the things I don't say about myself. I might say more later.
I really enjoy random conversations with new people, it makes the day feel so much more fulfilling.
Feel free to message or contact me via the below for intellectual or general shoot-the-shit conversation.
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Pandora's Box
Complete.: The latest iteration that has branch extensions and more ambient shading.
Chest
Type-face detailing.: We went back and did the aging type-writer shading and line work.
2009/11/19 23:53 So, new letter detailing for my chest lettering and some ambient shading for my backpiece. My backpiece feels a lot more balanced with the shading (well, when I look at it in the mirror); it felt so top heavy. We were actually brainstorming whether to shade and use negative space to outline two characters on either side of Pandora, and I drew a blank. I already have so much interconnecting symbolism sunk into this piece, I was kaput for anything more.
And then in a half daze at work, it hit me. *BUT* We've already done the shading on my back and I now know the theming for my chest.
It'll will involve sanskrit (buddhism references), a murder scene, my own little writings, a motif of skulls piled on top of each other to the tune of Stalin's "One death is a tragedy, a million is a statistic," etc; SO MANY awesome ideas. Now... I have to trim some of them down. But, forward progress and I now have an overarching theme for my chest, whereis before, I didn't.
And I'm still stoked about CA. And Clutch is coming to town in late Dec. E-p-i-c.
2009/11/19 11:08 Today, some touch up work for my back and then some detailing around my collar bone lettering. I need to talk to him about chest piece concepts
Saturday/Sunday at midnight will be a 21st birthday party for a friend. I don't expect it to last very long, she's quite a light-weight.
But, that's the day I technically start my vacation, leave the week of thanksgiving for California. R&R. Sounds good.
2009/11/15 11:33 So, tuesday i went to Hatebreed/Cannibal Corpse/Unearth/Hate Eternal. Great time. Other than the fact that when a female acquaintance (one I wish I didn't know now) got into a fight, I tried to stop it and was struck in the back of the head by an unknown person and then kicked in the face. Luckily, my friend Jason was able to peel me off the of the pavement in the scuffle and get me to his place. I still have no memory of being struck or the fight. Unbelievable. Anyway, my headaches have been getting better and the pain in the back of my head/neck is going away.
I am in CT now. Seeing my daughter. Originally, some time after noon I was supposed to have a late lunch with Holly. That turned into later in the afternoon and then dinner and then coffee and then not at all. I would have rather been canceled on. And why? Anthony. A washout, POS who had a nervous breakdown because he sucked at his job and met his mother for the first time yesterday and used Holly as a shoulder to cry on. Yeah, whatever, I sound like a cold-hearted SOB, I wish I could un-meet my mother. Anyway, Holly and Anthony were involved at some point, but now Holly can say anything about him except with some reference to pathetic. So. This is what takes my Saturday plans and twists them COMPLETELY to shit. Yeah. Real happy about all of this.
I'm contemplating severing all ties to her on the principle.
2009/11/09 20:38 Yeah, so, we’ve just been trying to get together on and off again, chatting, I’m giving her CD’s back, she’s cancelled on me 3 previous times or something came up, she’s socially isolated and introverted, we’re attracted to each other, 3 hours of distance between us, blah blah blah.
We have a moment over the phone or in person that feels intimate and mutual. Then, that’s followed by one-sided attempts at communication (me), and then out of nowhere after I push it from the forefront of my brain, she responds.
And I am admitting to myself that I have expended too much energy on this. There would have been an bluntly straightforward conversation this evening. Apparently, she’s either so stand-off-ish that she doesn’t even want to talk like grown-ups about this or she’d rather spend time with whatever it is that makes her so miserable with her life. I can accept that people have their defensive mechanisms, but when they can’t turn them off long enough to be a human being when it matters it’s really overkill. FUBAR. This is me talking. Ridiculous.
On a positive note, at least I can stop feeling like I’m trying so hard for nothing. It’s freeing. I’m liking it. And she did turn me onto Julian Plenti. I can always be thankful for that.
