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2010/03/18 23:27
I have decided that I really like this photo.
You know what, this is staying on top for a while cuz it makes me feel good.
From the left is Steven, Paul and myself =)
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2009/10/29 09:00
Just watched the final episode of Frasier in which he recites the final passage of Tennyson's Ulysses.
Feels oddly appropriate right now.
To me the monologue is about moving on. Not regretting but not forgetting.
Not dwelling on mistakes and not holding on to the good times as an excuse not to move on, to search for something new.
It's comforting.
Tho' much is taken, much abides; and though
We are not now that strength which in old days
Moved earth and heaven; that which we are, we are;
One equal temper of heroic hearts,
Made weak by time and fate, but strong in will
To strive, to seek, to find, and not to yield.
I think things are beggining to look up.
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2009/10/28 21:33
I'm hoping if I can get things off my chest here that this will be the last depressing entry for a while. This will probably be a bit rambly/incoherent so please bare with me ;)
I feel like I've lost something that meant a lot to me.
I feel like part of me is missing, as though a chasm has opened up inside and it just keeps getting bigger.
I foolishly let myself open up against my better judgment, now I pay the price.
I guess nothing has really changed. There is just no spark anymore.
The magic has gone.
I'm slowly growing full of regrets. Regrets of things from years ago that I'd all but forgotten about.
Everything is just bubbling up inside me, the crap forced to the bottom is coming up again.
I don't like this side of myself.
I don't like caring about people I know deep down I shouldn't.
I don't like whats happening inside me right now.
Moral of the story?
1: Don't get close
2: Don't open up
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