IAM 17 years old. IAM 100% Buckinghamshire Brit. IAM a lesbian, single, not really looking but open to anything. IAM a Christian and a creationist. IAM a socio-liberal Marxist and pacifist. IAM teetotal (not drug-free) and trying (and failing) to quit smoking. IAM emetophobic and coulrophobic (puke and clowns scare me). IAM an English, Politics and Philosophy student. IAM an artist, a musician and a writer.
MODS: CURRENT:
20mm lobes (self-done)
1.2mm helix (by Alison at Woody's Tattoo Studio, High Wycombe)
1.6mm conch (by Alison at Woody's Tattoo Studio, High Wycombe) RETIRED:
1.2mm lobes (second hole, retired to make room for stretches)
1.6mm foot (self-done surface piercing, rejected after approx. 9 months)
2009/08/07 00:08 Since the weekend, I've been feeling fucking miserable, and I can't for the life of me work out why. It just feels like I can't think of any one thing in my life thats going well right now. So many little things are going wrong and its all building up. And to top it off, everything seems to be going so right for everyone I know, and that just makes it worse that it isn't for me. But then that makes me feel so guilty that I'm seeing my friends happy, and instead of being pleased for them I can't seem to help but think selfishly. I want to be glad that they're so happy, but when I'm feeling like this its impossible not to have that horrible sense of "that should be me, not them".
interesting night
2009/07/26 15:53 I went to the Nag's Head (an awesome pub/venue in High Wycombe, Bucks) last night to watch my friend's band (Rocket Zombies, check them out) play. Really great gig, followed by playing in a kid's park in the dark, which was fun until I tried to jump onto a swing and ended up faceplanting on some concrete. Went to stay with my friend in Gerrards Cross after the gig and ended up finding a guy unconscious and covered in blood by the side of the road. It wasn't until I'd called 999 and he'd been woken up by 4 police officers and 2 paramedics that I realised I knew him! Completely bizarre night.
broken noses and camping trips
2009/07/23 18:18 I was planning on getting my septum pierced this week, but looks like that's gonna have to be put on hold for a while seeing as my "friend" accidentally smacked me in the face on Saturday night and has left me with a suspected broken nose. Went camping last night (the police officer who woke me up today seemed to think we were all gypsies or squatters) and the combination of 1/4 of weed and 3 hours sleep made for an interesting driving lesson; driving in first gear at around 12mph in a 50 zone, pissing off every other driver and giving my instructor a near heart attack all because the left side of my body decided it didn't want to work this morning.
piano times in london town
2009/07/13 22:49 Hopped a train over to Soho Square today with my painfully talented friend to exhibit her like a trained performing monkey at the pianos before they're taken away. Ended up attracting quite a crowd, mostly homeless folks and drunks/junkies (oh well, good company) as well as the odd tourist with cameras. We reduced a particularly sensitive vagrant to tears by playing "Fields of Gold", although that was pretty difficult as the middle C, low E and high A and Bb keys were all broken and stool had what looked like piss-stains all over it. Still, a fun day all round.
first week of summer
2009/07/11 13:43 It's been a week since college finished for the summer, and so far, so good. Running out of money already, and most of that has just been spent on public transport; I gotta hurry up and pass my driving test. Spent most of the week sleeping on friend's floors (I now look and smell like I've crawled out of a skip) and looking after drunkards (it amazes me how some people I know can maintain a quiet dignity while vomiting out of a car window in the middle of Burnham) but that's just standard I guess. Get paid on the 16th, so hopefully I'm getting the rook piercing I've been itching for some time over the next week. Best friend's birthday tomorrow and house party in Clapham next weekend; summer is looking up.
