2009/11/19 18:03 for a while i thought i just had the nasty habit of coincidentally surrounding myself with horrible people but i think the truth of the matter is that i am just a huge fucking self-inflated narcissist and am inherently incapable of liking anyone. i just wish that my friends were more supportive (lol? i feel like an idiot saying that but i genuinely feel like they attack EVERYTHING I DO... maybe i just act a lot more irrationally/questionably than i realize) and actually had the capacity to you know... empathize. like friends fucking should.
objectively speaking, i'm probably just too dependent on other people and play the victim way too often.
fuck this shit. i need to learn how to go back to just not caring about anyone because at least when you don't care you can't be disappointed :( i feel pretty alone.
