2008/06/04 16:45 my daily headline: I am not privately hanging out with any more boys I don't already know! for a while!
new boys are stupid... they always feel like the first time they meet/chill with you is the time they have to make their move before they're in "danger/friend zone," which means when I meet lots of new boys at a time it's like I'm an effing bowl of sugar with tonza flies around me.
gross.
I am tired of having to so strongly say "no!" against their passive aggressive b.s. that I am decidedly chilling with ONLY people I already know slash new ladies. I've been meaning to meet more cool women anyway. and they understand that it's STUPID to try to push some one to do something they've vocalized discomfort with. I think it's called something starting with an "r".
so I am going to have my gender filter on for a while... it may be wrong socio-politically, but damned if it's wrong for me right now. I need a break from this shit.
June 27 - BMEfest (not paid...) [need ride from Pittsburgh, PA]
July 1-7 - Nat'l Rainbow Wyoming or Regional in Missouri (free) [need ride from BMEfest Toronto]
July 11-13 - Allgood in West Virginia (not paid...) [need ride from Rainbow WY or MO]
July 15 - Allentown PA for Mom's birthday
August 10-18 - PA Regional Rainbow in Allegheny SF (free) [need ride from Pittsburgh]
August 25-31 - Burning Man, Black Rock City (paid) [need ride from Baltimore or Pittsburgh]
September 1-7 - Twin Cities, Minnesota [need ride from Nevada]
2008/04/20 23:59 popped my first mari-cherry today!
2008/04/20 23:24 Am I so disillusioned to the electoral system, lobbyists, "heroes", money, quotas, people in power, people who feel that those in power will heed our needs, and the language co-opted but meaningless when coming from the systematic "left" (like a two-way mirror which looks the same but there are people fucking watching you from behind it)
that I can no longer effectively canvass with big organizations which are political tools?
Working America is owned by the AFL-CIO, who has done some shitty things as well as some good. Working America takes credit for the minimum wage increase in Pennsylvania. AFL-CIO's march in Seattle engulfed the more demonstrative march of Democracy Now, in a police deal to pacify the more radical factions in the action against the World Trade Organization. Unions are useful things. I do dig on 'em. I feel like the AFL-CIO no longer represents its constituency, as it sells its endorsements to the Democrats. Every. Single. Time.
At least Clean Water Action endorses Greens and Republicans, too...
I might go back to Clean Water Action. But Ralph Nader is a hero. At least CWA doesn't have a huge political tool funding it, which also means community organizers must also fund-raise (pooh... but I'm good at it if I believe in it), and I felt like the issues worked on by CWA were getting more direct results. Though I would still be under the same regional director, Chris Bathurst, who advised my Canvass Director to fire all the leadership in the office over some petty bullshit!
Politics are bullshit.
Yet... have I ever been perfectly happy with the politics of Food Not Bombs? Wait. Yes. Yes, I have. Not always, but overall - yes.
What is an idealistic, animal loving and artistic girl who wishes to avoid bankruptcy and homelessness to do?
I'm here, now! I see it's been a loooong time since I've been around to update. Since then, I've relocated to Pittsburgh, spent a year at the Art Institute until I realized they were lying to me every time they had a chance to make money, moved in with Food Not Bombs Pittsburgh, become a far better photographer and more collected overall. My partner still lives in Baltimore, and though we see one another every few months only, we're still deeply in love. An plans to move here to Pittsburgh within the year so we can both work while I knock some gen ed credits out of the way at community college. My brother has become a conservative Republican, my mother has begun adopting young people starting with my best friend Sera, my father has apparently lost his house in Pennsylvania and is living in a van with his wife down in Alabama, my grandparents are still down to buy me a car (or in reality, probably a pick-up truck), and I am remain deeply in love with all of my friends - even though with whom I've not talked for eons!
I've begun stretching my navel, so she's at 8ga these days. I've stumbled across a couple excellent tattooists in this area, and with my new full-time job canvassing again I may be able to afford some of that crucial ink I've been waiting on!
This summer, it looks like I'll be hitting up my usual National Rainbow Gathering, as well as Burning Man, and hoping to afford a plane ticket to meet BMEfest once again! New pictures to come all over my page (teehee).
2006/12/06 13:41
I may be done with IAM. I'm about to suspend my account for a month, by which time my subscription will be expired. time will tell if I renew.
bye.
2006/12/05 12:55
good news: my right lobe's ear cheese smells like sharp provolone.
bad news: there's a bright red growth behind my navel's bottom hole. and it's rather large. and keeps growing a little. I have to actually listen to my own advice, soak twice daily, and someday when I get some money get a curved BB 1/4" or so shorter. *sigh* whatever, I'll get rid of it eventually. and in the meantime it's not visible and it's kinda neat to see my body do.
2006/12/02 20:32
working a shit ton at the geek store and the hippie store. getting much less than I deserve. and then much less than I expect. with even my mom on my back, pointing out my mistakes and bitching about things over which I have no control. my brother does not approve.
college next fall? the lehigh valley til then? hippie store after the new year? ... dan tomorrow night?
who knows. statement.
my drawing is improving. my photos are crawling along. my mando has been on hold. my mind is totally gone.
np:: "buffalo soldier" - bob marley and the wailers(at the hippie store)
2006/11/15 15:03 the pearls & brass / sw!ms show was stunning music. lovely vibes coming from the bands, and the crowd felt fine. katie and I danced our tushies off. later, on the lehigh valley punk rock forum, I got an A- for dancing and dreads, but was also told I smell of cabbage.
got into the medeski, scoffield, martin & wood show for free! didn't look like we were getting any tickets so we started busting our beer and bucks on goodies in the back lot. but katie saw a friend of hers and we got hooked up with 2 free tix. danced our tushes off for 3 hours! best part was, everyone was dancing! felt fine to be part of a highly energized mass so in tune with the tunes. much nicer than feeling like the center of attention just for moving my body.
about to finish painting the room today! pictures tomorrow!!
np:: "rubber car" - enon
2006/11/10 13:01
loving my job. I kick its ass and it's mad fun. I love working with video games all day and talking to dorky ass customers and coworkers.
stopped by this hippie store, habitat, in the mall because I applied there. the store manager/owner lady was in, and she told me I was among the top few she was considering. so.. awesome! pays about the same as my current job (shit) and is willing to be flexible with my other schedule.
gonna drop by kb toys when scott's around and see if he can get me in on the emergency list. like when no one can cover a shift, get my ass in there. so hopefully I will have three jobs. *choke* never thought I'd say that. ever.
times are sweet and cuddly with the dan. a little too much, actually. it's really nice, but I don't think I can do it. or want to do it. so I should try to make it totally platonic, but I'm afraid it'll mess up our immense amount of chillin time. and it's not nearly as much fun chilling with other people around here. I really like spending time with this cat. I hope he understands and it doesn't interfere with having fun.
<3 <3 <3
2006/11/04 02:44 next week I have 8 fucking hours at eb games. that's not a job, that's a hobby! ugh I need a real job so bad..
and my money isn't available in my bank account, or yet in my paypal account. so $100 is just floating through bureaucracy. hopefully my mom will lend me money for paint and beer, because I invited dan and chuq over (kiri kinda invited herself) to help me paint my room bright pink tomorrow!
2006/11/02 23:32
wasn't a terribly exciting halloween. but it was pretty alright, for a tuesday! this lady at Subway said, "that's the spirit!" I'm like, wtf? "your hair, is that just for today?" yeah I'm gonna dread, bleach and dye my hair and then undo it all the next morning.
2006/10/29 23:30
I am minus one bridge piercing. and plus one part-time retail job at EB games. time to start reading slashdot again.
np:: Robot Chicken
2006/10/25 17:15
thinking it's time to retire my bridge piercing. but my only glasses wouldn't hide the holes without touching them, which is no good. so I'm going to have oozing, healing holes in the middle of my face. guess I'll go buy another gallon of distilled water. wish I had some dried lavender flowers. I do have tazo tea!
fisher-price is now making "kid-tough" cameras. they are so cool.
edit: jewelry out. actual removal was fine. but the piercing was just starting to act up again so both sides are very red and swollen. tazo zen green tea! I'm glad I have *some* glasses. probably after a night's sleep, a soak or two, and a shower, it'll be much happier.
2006/10/23 18:03
I've just come back from the art studios of Myron Barnstone. such a large blow to my ego has never been so stabilizing. I think he has a very low opinion of me, however he is confident in his and human's ability to take a student at any point of learning and bring hi/r to great skills within a year.
this is me staying in the lehigh valley until 2008. this is me taking a very large step in a concerted direction. this is me taking a larger step in any one concerted direction than I have ever done.
