i_italicizedPennsylvania241 days till my birthday.
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An Exercise in Neuroticism
I like things that you like. Let's not get all worked up about it. Here's a list. lastfm deviantart
...et cetera.
My mods consist of a few dozen DIY piercings over the years and a handful of small, quickly fading scarifications.
I proudly co-orchestrated the founding of the Guild of Calamitous Intent suspension group. I did a suicide suspension and found it to be "nifty", "swell", and "adjective".
My gonads were removed with a rusty hacksaw blade and eaten by a homosexual pirate-viking in a thrilling S&M space adventure. (aka a doctor, operating room, and other completely sane conditions) I am open about this fact merely because it gets me laid, as well as occasional high-fives and strange reactions from physicians.
My future mods will consist of full brain transplantation into an invincible yet sexy cyborg exoskeleton, and eventual impalement and decapitation at the hands of opposing armies.
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2009/11/20 18:13 I feel impossibly aggravated today by the unpredictability of my temporal and chemical cycles. I want to boil over like an unwatched pot, but the pressure builds only toward horrific detonation. The overwhelming pangs of cognitive overload forever landing like the lashings of a thousand uninterpretable tongues. If only I could see with such clarity... but the hole in my head could never be big enough.
2009/11/19 02:59 I'm keeping this one; sheltered in cupped hands, I'll peek in and smile at what I've found here.
2009/11/15 18:39 I feel a lot of desperation and anxiety today. I'm so glad I have that doctor's appointment on the 19th. I really hope she can help me get the medication I need. Everything felt right a week ago when I was on a full dose. I could focus, I had energy- I hate that my whole life has been devoid of those two things. I hope that I might one day soon transcend my inadequacies.
Jaime's band had a practice in my attic on Thursday. Some people showed up and danced and it was neat; and then yesterday I took Jaime out for sushi. I enjoyed myself- I hope she did, too. I wish I had more to say about it than that. :/
This journal is really boring and kind of whiny. Sorry.
I'm really lonely. I would cut my little toe off for sleepy cuddles and spooning right now. Or even just for another human being to touch me in some affectionate sort of way... that would be pretty swell, I think. I like not feeling like a cold, inanimate object.
Meh.
2009/11/04 03:06 Today was gravy. I got more done in a day than I've done all month, and it feels amazing. I'm now re-enrolled in college, among a half-dozen other good things- received a significant deposit into my account, and secured another one within a couple of days. Watched my friends go crazy drunk and stab eachother, hit each other with paint cans, potting soil, and a 13" television, then wound the night down with hot cocoa and an episode of Farscape with Jaime. Life is good today. I will sleep well tonight.
