meechums   San Francisco, CA Me, myself, and I. "So, Lone Star, now you see that evil will always triumph because good is dumb." -Dark Helmet (Spaceballs) The basics>> -Michi -Currenly 22 years old -Japanese-American; born in the States and grew up in Tokyo -Art major at TUJ -Married The up side>> -Manga, doujinshi -Webcomics -Black, white, and checkered things -Drawing, especially with pastels, and photography -Internet -Belly dancing -Zombies -Star Wars; Spaceballs -Bright, colorful tattoos -Good food, good people, good times -Halloween -Coffee -Music; karaoke -The sound of the ocean The down side>> -My extreme case of slackerness -Hot, spicy foods -People who say karaokEE, and not karaokE (pet peeve) -Awkard silences and/or pauses during conversation -Internet -Most J-pop -Stress -Cold, windy, and rainy weather - combined My piercings>> -1/2" in both ears -an industrial (right) -16g tragus (right) -16g rook (left) -4g inner conch (left) -14g tongue -14g navel Retired piercings>> -12g septum -16g daith (left) -vertical hood (twice rejected) Ink>> -Two checkered stars, on upper right and left chest. **The first time I heard this was at my 8th grade graduation ceremony, and it has stuck with me ever since.** Ladies and Gentlement of the class of `97: Wear sunscreen. If I could offer you only one tip for the future, suncreen would be it. The long-term benefits of sunscreen has been proved by scientists, whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience. I will dispense this advice to you now. Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth. Oh, never mind. You will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they`ve faded. But trust me, in 20 years, you`ll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can`t grasp how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked. You are NOT as fat as you imagine. Don`t worry about the future. Or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubble gum. The real trouble in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind, the kind that blindside you at 4 pm on some idle Tuesday. Do one thing every day that scares you. Sing. Don`t be reckless with other people`s hearts. Don`t put up with people who are reckless with yours. Floss. Don`t waste your time on jealously. Sometimes you`re ahead, sometimes you`re behind. The race is long and, in the end, it`s only with yourself. Remember compliments you receive. Forget the insults. If you succeed in doing this, tell me how. Keep your old love letters. Throw away your bank statements. Stretch. Don`t feel guilty if you don`t know what you want to do with your life. The most interesting people I know didn`t know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives. Some of the most interesting 40-year-olds I know still don`t. Get plenty of calcium. Be kind to your knees. You`ll miss them when they`re gone. Maybe you`ll marry, maybe you won`t. Maybe you`ll have children, maybe you won`t. Maybe you`ll divorce at 40, maybe you`ll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary. Whatever you do, don`t congratulate yourself too much or berate yourself either. Your choices are half chance. So are everybody else`s. Enjoy your body. Use it every way you can. Don`t be afraid of it or what other people think of it. It`s the greatest intstrument you`ll ever own. Dance, even if you have nowhere to do it but your living room. Read the directions, even if you don`t follow them. Do NOT read beauty magazines. They will only make you feel ugly. Get to know your parents. You never know when they`ll be gone for good. Be nice to your siblings. They`re your best link to your past and the people most likley to stick with you in the future. Understand that friends come and go, but with a precious few you should hold on to. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle, because the older you get, the more you need the people who knew you when you were young. Live in New York City, but leave before it makes you hard. Live in nothern California once, but leave before it makes you soft. Travel. Accept certain inalienable truths: Prices will rise. Politicians will philander. You, too, will get old. And when you do, you`ll fantasize that when you were young, prices were reasonable, politicians were noble, and children respected their elders. Respect YOUR elders. Don`t expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund. Maybe you`ll have a wealthy spouse. But you never know when either one might run out. Don`t mess too much with your hair or by the time you`re 40 it will look 85. Be careful whose advice you buy, but be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia. Dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts, and recycling it for more than it`s worth. But trust me on the sunscreen. My experiences: My septum story (and my first submission) Now in... multi-color!  Shtuff. Hanami Cherry blossoms: at Naka-Meguro river. Artistic? Clothed woman.: Drawing I, spring semester 2004. Friends and the like. Most of the gang at Dark Castle Mod Page: 1 2 3

2007/08/07 11:20 Well damn. I`m now in California. It all doesn`t feel very real at all, it`s like I`m just here visiting for like a week or something like that. I bet this feeling probably has to do with the fact that we`re staying with the hubby`s friend at Walnut Creek at the moment though. So basically I feel like a tourist but at the same time I know this is going to be my home. ...I think. I don`t know how I can put how I feel into words. But anyway, so we`ve been basically looking at apartments. Actually we`ve only been searching online but we looked at this one apartment/cottage in glen park (a cute and small neighborhood) and I hope we get it, cuz it seem s like it`s in a nice area. But I guess we`ll see. There`s also other apartments we have to look at too, so. So my last couple weeks in Japan was fun if not packed. I was able to pack up everything - including my suitcases - and enjoy my last couple days here in Japan with a couple of friends. Poor hubby had to pack up all his belongings and have to clean the whole house because nobody will be living there so...yeah. Anyways, in all I sent 11 boxes - which was waaay more than I thought I`d send. I guess I packed more in boxes than I really need...but I guess we`ll see. Most of the stuff are like stuff in the past and whatnot so they`re kind of nostalgic for me. Man, I`m such a packrat though. Oh yeah, I had a going away party at an izakaya at Shibuya...in all there was apparently going to be about 40 people. o_O But in the end only about 20 people showed up; which I`m kinda thankful about. The needing to find out who`s coming thing was pretty stressful, since people said `maybe` but didn`t get to me later on if they are actually COMING or not. Which can be really fustrating, considering I needed to know how many people so that the people at the izakaya can figure out how many seats they need to reserve. But then they told me that it might be best to order some food beforehand because some people was going to be late but also because "there will be something to do", or in other words, not awkward for everything in the party, so that`s what I did...although I had a helluva time trying to figure out which foods to pre order considering I didn`t have a menu in front of me. ugh. Thank god I had the hubby on the other phone helping me out. All in all though, the going away party turned out to be a lot of fun. A lot of people didn`t know each other, but they all got along pretty well so I was relieved about that. After the izakaya thing, some of us went karaoke-ing, and then after that, a few of us went to Midnight Mess one more time. My friend jazzy also came, which I was glad about, so it was good times...until I got too drunk and couldn`t remember the rest of the night.(>_<) bah...oh well. But yeah, good times overall, thankfully. :) Anyway, I`m needing to lie down because I have this damned cold...I dunno if sitting in front of the computer, typing away would help at all but at least it`d be something to do. hah. I wish I don`t have this cold at all since there`s all this good food in SF that I hadn`t gotten to try or couldn`t try since I wouldn`t be able to taste it. meh. And, AND tomorrow Tommy, S, and I (and hopefully another friend) will go to Bondage-A-Go-Go which is like a gothic/fetish club thingie, and since this will be my first time in this city, I`m very excited. So I gotta get well! XD So....guess I`ll just write more later. Yup.

2007/06/17 01:49 Well...I guess I`m long overdue for an update. Lots of thing have happened. For one thing, I am no longer a student at TUJ since I`ve quit school. The reason for this is mainly because I`m moving to SF in August (August 1st, in fact). I was actually planning to attend the Summer Tyler Art workshop but in the end decided to drop out. Sooo since then I have a lot of time on my hands...time of which I should be using to organize and pack up my stuff, but I haven`t been. Basically I`ve just been hanging out with friends, working, and drawing. The latter of which I haven`t really done recently...and I really should, considering, like I said, I have a lot of time up til I move, but I don`t know...I haven`t been motivated much these days for some reason. Either that, or I have some sort of artist`s block which prevents me from (wanting to) picking up that pencil or whatever media I want to use. It sucks. I have all these ideas, one of which I would like to submit to this one art show in New York that`s called the Dr. Sketchy`s Anti-Art Show. Apparently people all over the world could apply...so I`m sure there`s going to be a lot of artists submitting their work and my work will only be one among the hundreds, or thousands, or however many people have submitted. Sigh. Of course I should stop bitching and get around to drawing. My husband is right when he says if I draw everyday, I will get better and better...but I don`t know, like I said, there`s something stopping me. If only I could find what the hell it is that is stopping or blocking the creativity, that would be really nice. Or maybe I just need to draw, however I may feel. Fuck. Anyway. So now there is only about 6 more weeks until the movie. Holy shit. I don`t think that fact has hit me fully yet, however. Perhaps when it finally comes down to the departing day, I will feel something about moving. It`s weird, because I *know* I`m moving, and that August is slowly but surely drawing near, but at the same time I don`t know or realize it fully, like I said. Whenever I talk to my husband, friends, or coworkers, it all just seems so casual. Like, "oh, yeah, I`ll be moving in August...yeah, I`ll definitely be sad to leave...but at the same time, I`m excited to live in San Francisco"; "oh, for sure come by and visit whenever," and blah blah blah. Eh. Maybe it`s the fact that I haven`t started packing that I`m feeling like nothing`s changed; that I`m just *talking* about the fact that I`m moving - would "I just talk the talk and walk the walk" phrase apply? It kinda seems like that. Definitely when I move to SF, the fact that the new city will be my new home...and that I won`t be living in Japan ever again. Although of course, I never know what will happen...for all I know, Tommy may get a job in Tokyo or where ever else in Japan which may require us to move back there, or at least go there often...or perhaps we`ll just be homesick for Japan in the first place that we`ll move back. :P Either way though, I`m sure that when we have the money to travel we will go back for sure...and definitely go travel to other states in the US to visit with friends there or go elsewhere abroad, like Europe (I`ve never been but Tommy has been in the past). But really, who knows where life leads you? Anyway, because my husband had lived in SF - or California in general - for a good number of years, he obviously knows the city much more than I, and it would awesome to go around to all of the places that he knows and loves. I remember him telling me recently that he`s excited about doing that - showing me around SF - and also I remember that we had talked about how there`s not much things to do around in Tokyo anymore...or at least it seems that way nowadays. Of course if we had the funds we would definitely go out of Tokyo much more, but because we don`t...we`re basically stuck to going about Tokyo or the surrounding areas. Don`t get me wrong, I love this city and Tommy does too...but considering we have been around all the usual places - Shibuya, Shinjuku, Harajuku, Akihabara, etc. etc. - it gets tiring after a while. I`ve recently suggested just hopping on a line (like the Keihin Tohoku) and just go to the end of the line or something since we most likely haven`t been to that kind of area yet. So we shall see...I`m sure lots of adventures will await us, or at least I hope so. Other going ons...well, my friends G, A, M, and other art nerds have finally graduated last Sunday. The ceremony was kinda blah, although the slideshow at the begining was interesting although cheesy. haha. Anyway, it was the cocktail party where things began to be interesting; free wine, beer, and food - who can resist?! ;) I think Tommy regrets not coming with me for sure, haha. Anyway, good times were had...people were all dressed - A was even in a kimono! - of which I`m sure there were glad to change out of once the party was over and the "nijikai" began. The aforementioned "nijikai" was lead by mainly Shinya (other teachers that came with were Kaoru, Steve from main campus, and one more guy whose name may have been Keith) for all the graduated art students plus one international affairs student and one former TUJ art student (me). We went to this izakaya at Meguro station where there was soba shochu (which was really good) and various other foods and drinks - I think we were probably the loudest group in the whole izakaya. :P Previous to the izakaya at which we eventually decided upon, the first izakaya was gonna seat us at this long table which was basically in the center of the whole place - and considering this, we were told to not get too rowdy so as to not disturb the other guests. Well, considering how loud we all can be - especially Shinya, hahaha - we ultimately decided to go to a different izakaya. Obviously this was a good idea. So after lots of talks about oyaji gags and the like, it was time for us to leave, and then we decided to get some coffee at some Italian place where some people got even MORE food - most of us were beyond stuffed at this point - and more beer whereas the rest of us had coffee. All in all, a pretty fun night; looking back, I think it`s mostly us Art majors that go out and drink altogether than any other majors; but that`s what makes it better. hah. Man, I will really miss the other art nerds when I move...I`m already sad enough that I don`t get to see the rest of the art people still at school anymore! meh. Also, it`s not set in stone yet but I will be a model for a gothic-lolita photo shoot either sometime this month or the next. Should be exciting! I hope I don`t jinx it by writing about it, but since this will only be my second photo shoot I`m kinda excited and nervous about this whole thing. But, it should be fun, at least I hope so. I never thought I`d become a model, but I guess it`s always good to try things at least once. Another modeling gig that IS set in stone is on Wednesday, June 27th, I will be the bellydance model for the asforementioned Dr. Sketchy`s event which is basically a drawing class in which anybody can participate; and people can also drink or eat there also since it is at a restaurant. There`s also contests and prizes to be won - one of the prizes usually involve a shot of something, heh. I went to the one last month with Tommy (who is the main photographer of the event) and it was good times. I got some (more) drawing practice as well although it was definitely challenging - I forgot how difficult one minute drawings can be! Anyway, it should be interesting when I`m the model this time around, especially a bellydance model. Aside from posing and sweating being under very bright lights, I`ll also probably be doing a short performance as well. Considering I haven`t danced since oh...probably sometime last year, hopefully I don`t mess up! If anybody in the Tokyo area wanna come by, please do! It will be at The Pink Cow in/near the Shibuya area (there should be an access map on their webpage -> www.thepinkcow.com) and starts from 20:30 to 22:30. There is also a 1,500 entry fee which includes one drink. Okay, enough shameless self-promotion. :P But that`s basically what`s happening in my life at the moment...I should probably seriously update this thing more often so that I wouldn`t have to write such long entries! And while I`m at it I should probably update those damned pictures too. I keep that saying that, but it will happen. One of these days, anyways...

2007/03/18 02:28 Happy St. Patty's Day, everyone. Today was a fun day. I woke up later than I meant to - again. But I did get some more work done on my 3d assignment. But it's very slow-going...and I think I'd need to stay up tonight to finish it. I would do that tomorrow if I didn't have work tomorrow night but...eh. The sooner I finish it the better. Anyway, later I went out to Yokosuka (near the military base) to go to a friend's band perform. Good times was had...there was even a mosh pit going on. I would have joined if the guys weren't so aggro, but then again, it usually is, isn't it? Eh, maybe next time...after I get more courage from drinking (more). heh. Afterwards, a whole bunch of us left because my friend's band was actually supposed to play last but ended up doing the opening act at last minute, even though they organized the whole thing. So in protest we all went to a different bar - orginally we would have gone to a bar called Fuck Yeah! (I didn't realize that was an actual bar name until we got there) but it was packed, so we went to a different one. Unfortunately Tommy and I got separated from the rest of the group, but because he had the friend's number, we managed to group with some of the people and then go to where the rest of the people was at. Damn, I don't remember what the bar name was called...but it was pretty cool - three floors, lots of space and couches. Actually the third floor, had a small living room kind of space where right next to that was a bigger space with more couches which looked out on the second floor so it was kinda like a loft, I think. So yeah, that was pretty cool. So overall...good times, and hopefully we shall meet up with them at the next performance which is I think later this month or on April 1st. Man, I wish it wouldn't be during the last weeks of school, but what could I do. I hope I could manage to get out there for either, though. On another note...I've been really wanting new platform boots lately. Not boots that will make you ridiculously tall, but ones that would still give you some boost in height or something. Unfortunately the pair of boots from the site I want doesn't ship internationally. Boo. But, there's a different pair of boots from a different site that does, so maybe I'll get those...I don't know...especially since it's kind of pricey ($74) and including tax it will be even pricier. hmm...decisions, decisions. Oops, it's getting to be almost 3...guess I should get started on the project once again. Damn the internet for being so distracting! :P

2007/03/13 01:44 Well, I'm back. I've been logging in IAM on and off but never thought to write a entry until now. Actually, I've been thinking on and off about not renewing my membership when it's almost up, but I don't know yet. I'll see. Man, on a random note, Japan has the most weird tv shows ever. The shw I'm half listening/watching at the moment has a friggin' Egyptian dog-god with a voice changer thing, and he's 'overseeing' the talk about three top girls with the best boobs. ...Yeah. Anyway, so I've been awfully busy this semester... as is every semester. But god, what did I get myself into. It's already the end of the semester, and paper deadlines are looming on the horizon...three papers to be exact. Doesn't seem so bad, but one's a 20 page paper for Women's Studies, with a 10 page first draft due in two weeks. Then there's one 8-10 paper for Language and Race, the rough draft also due in two weeks. And finally a Modern Art history paper due at the end of March, but it's the most flexible since the prof said that it could be anywhere from 5-10. Pretty good, no? But then there's other shit I need to do like 3D assignments (one due next Monday and there's one more after that, and then the final project that's 'free' and is due on the last class in April). ...God. Just looking at all of that stresses me out. Aaaagggghhhh!!!!!! On to happier things...well, not a lot of exciting stuff happens aside from school. Been to a couple of shows, like Zombie Lolita (which is a plays/skits in which all the girls are zombies and usually some nudity), and then...well, I've been sort of drinking a lot these days. For instance my friend's Osamu's birthday was last Friday, so a whole bunch of us (well, me and a whole bunch of people I didn't know) went out to eat, drink, and party. That was fun, although I woke up the next day with a hangover...which was not fun. Oh, and that reminds me of another fellow art student's exhibtion opening party, where most of us ate and drank a lot of wine, and then drank even more at a nijikai at a izakaya near Tamachi station. Also good times...with more people that I actually know. My husband Thomas was also there although he didn't make it to the opening party unfortunately, but at least there's pictures (courtesy of my camera phone). Actually, I haven't shown him those, but I will eventually...when I remember to. heh. So anyway, yeah, not drinking for a while, I think. Until, at least, this semester's (almost) over. One thing - actually, a couple of things - I'm looking forward to aside from the end of this semester is bellydancing. These days, I really crave to bellydance again but hadn't the money or the time. And I got the urge even more ever since I've found out about tribal (fusion) bellydance, which looks really, really neat, and would love to learn. I already have some knowledge of bellydance by being part of the Bellydance Club at TUJ (which has now disbanded since the leader went to Canada for college) where we all learned Oriental style of bellydance, so at least I'm not a total beginner...but still, this is a different style than Oriental so it shall be fun, I think. Anyway, what I'm looking forward to is the workshop taught by members of The Indigo, which is a well-known bellydance company based in San Francisco, I believe. Both members, Mardi Love and Rachel Brice, are also well known, although I think Rachel Brice is a bit more well-known although I can't say for sure. But anyway, this workshop is gonna be around the begining of April, around the time when I'm sure I'm going to be hella stressin' so I'm sure bellydance would be a good way to de-stress myself for the time being. I can't wait. And then, there appears to be another workshop, which I guess is an introductory to the Indigo workshop in April, although I think it's more of an introduction to tribal bellydance in general, in mid-March. It's taught by a Japanese person, I think, that's one of the teachers who is part of a group that teaches bellydance, both Oriental and Tribal. So perhaps I shall go to that too; it'll probably be good for me both physically and mentally. Actually, out of curiosity, is there anybody who's currently taking classes from Kervanserai (Sacred Earth Bellydace)? I think the founder is Mishaal, who is one of the teachers of bellydance at that school(?). So yeah...at least there's some silver lining. I just wish the weather would get warmer sooner. Last week there was a couple days of warm weather...like early spring/summer. I think there were even cherry blossoms blooming out in Ueno park, or so I heard. But now it's back to lovely wintery freezing cold again, so those cherry blossoms are probably not blooming anymore now. Booo. Hopefully it'll turn warmer sooner than later... Holy shit, only four or five more months til the big move. ...Wow. This year's already flying by fast. I can't wait for the move, but I'm really nervous too...and I'm still figuring out what to do about school. For sure I wanna transfer to an art school - right now either The Academy or CCA - but I'm really worried that all my credits wouldn't transfer and would have to re-take some classes, and/or that I wouldn't be able to transfer into CCA or some other art school (the Academy has a rolling and open admission where anybody is accepted; although I've heard the dropout rate is high) because I'm currently a junior in university, plus I'll be going from a BA in Art to BFA in Illustration. I don't know if the last part would be a major problem, but I could see one of the two first ones being a problem. Sigh... Not to mention that, if I wanna take liberal arts classes at community college before entering any art school so as to get that out of that, I'd have to wait a year and a day to become a Cali resident so that I wouldn't have to pay out-of-state fees (if community college has that). Ergh. Well, I guess I'll iron all of this out eventually, but at the same time, I know it wouldn't hurt to apply as early as possible, but...I don't know. I don't really wanna deal with that when I already have so much other shit going on, so perhaps during the summer...or something. I guess I'll see. Anyway. I should go to sleep...got a full day ahead of me tomorrow...erm, later today. At least it involves stuff I actually *like* doing, which is art. heh. Well, goodnight. Post/View Comments (1)

2007/01/23 01:16 Better late than never, but...Happy New Year!! Start of the new year, but even more important, there's now only six more months until my move to SF. ...Wow. Seems like a long time away, but I also know from previous years (damn I sound old) that time flies by sooner than one might think, so I imagine this year would be no different. Man, I'm excited but I'm sad too...but at least SF is (somewhat) close to Tokyo so technically I could go back easier and whenever. If I had the money that is. So, um...what else to say? Spring semester has started...I'm taking four classes this time, which means I'm taking 13 credits. Originally I was only gonna take 3 but then I dropped into this Women's Studies course that my friend thought would be interesting for me, and I did, so I am taking it. My god I'm going to be busy: Intro. to 3D design (not animation), Language and Race, Modern Art History (starting from 1945), and then that Women's Study course called Women and Gender in the Middle East. At least my classes are only on MWF, but considering the work that I would most likely have to put in for 3D, I'd be coming to school on T and Th as well. Actually, I'll be going to school tomorrow since I need to finish my 'drawing with wire' assignment before Wednesday. Hopefully I'll get to see that Japanese animation film (I have no idea how to say it in English...it`s called 鉄コン筋クリート originally) with a friend...er, I hope it`s still in theaters, actually! Anyway, yeah, I`m enjoying all of my classes...although there are so many readings I have to do for almost all of my classes. At least all of the readings are interesting for the most part, although the most recent reading that my Language and Race class was pretty dry and technical so it wasn`t very interesting at all, but what could I do. In art history too we get a lot of readings, but we don`t go over them in class like we do with the other classes - we just kind of just watch movies/documentaries/clips (so far) and then the teacher would lecture, or just the latter. The documentary that we had watched yesterday was about Andy Warhol, and it was pretty funny the way he spoke and everything...actually, I wonder if it`s on reserve at the library cuz it may just be neat to see the whole thing, even with the annoying and "uppity" people that were being interviewed throughout the documentary. Work isn`t going bad. There`s some changes though that`s going to be effective start February, where the assistant manager and a girl (I suppose she`s a assis. manager at the other shop or something) switch places. I dunno what I think about all this, really, but I guess things just change, and all you can do is go with the flow. At least I could keep in touch with him somewhat, though. He was a cool guy, although weird. Then again I suppose everyone who works there is weird...oh man, the conversations that we have - especially when it comes down to sex. And I thought that was kind of a taboo or something other among Japanese considering I don`t hear people talk about it so much, but then again that could be just me.. Anyway, the girl that`s taking the assis. manager`s place seems like a cool gal, so I shall be looking forward to working with her. Seems like everyone already knew her but me though, which was weird...considering they were all already so nakayoshi, but eh. At least it ain`t awkard or anything I guess. You know...I was thinking about all this stuff involving moving to SF and attending school there and everything, and I keep thinking if this is the right thing to do; whether it would really be wiser to stay in Tokyo and at TUJ, and graduate from there. I mean, the art program at my current school is getting slightly better with more classes and more new professors, but at the same time....I could probably get a better education in art at an actual art school in SF, and in a specific art form like drawing, perhaps. I don`t know. I think I`m worried that most of the credits I have from the past 3 years wouldn`t transfer to whatever college I am applying/accepted to...but then I realize that either way, I don`t know what I want to DO with a career in art. I don`t know what specific kind of artist I want to be, what sort of specific art form I should do, and even if I choose whatever art degree in the end, how do I know if I have the right `elements` to being a successful artist, such as creativity, inspiration, the tools, and some technical know-how to do a certain kind of work. I haven`t been drawing - aside from doodling in a notebook - and haven`t been taking any photos in a long time also, so what does that say? If I am an artist that I say I am, why am I not creating stuff, whatever it is? I think what`s bothering me...since I haven`t been doing anything aristically besides from what I`m doing 3D, perhaps it`s not the right choice for me... But if that`s the case, then what could I do for life, for a job? I have no idea...so it may seem like the only choice is to become an artist, but that`s pretty bad if that`s the only choice you have to be, rather than have a variety of choices. I`d rather have that, although of course, I`d love to be able to `make it` as an artist, doing whaever I`m doing. Hopefully that`d all work out someday... Argh, I can feel my brain melting so I should probably get to sleep..g`night!

2006/12/18 03:08 So Design Festa went rather well, although no one (besides one person) bought Thom's postcards, but eh, better than none, right? And alas, I was going to do portraits of people, but I ended up not doing it at all because I feel like I didn't have enough ability to draw people, especially those I didn't know at all. Maybe next year? The cool thing was that we were interviewed by one of the staff, and it's probably up on the DF website by now, although I don't know for sure. Other than that, there were a lot of cool things happening around us too...like a huge wall where people were painting different murals and whatnot, and there was several skits (one of which was something out of The Tale of Genji, but different), and lots of other artists out there that were just as cool. Also there were some tattoo studios that had booths out there also, but while both of them had good artwork, it's not something that's particularly my style...or rather, a style that I like best, I guess. But eh. To each their own, right? Now school's been over for a couple weeks, now...and I guess all in all it was a good semester. I recently checked my grades and I got a B in Digital Photography II and an A in Japanese...awesome. The only thing I'm wondering about is about the comment below the Japanese course name...but I suppose I'll just ask the prof about that. The only thing I regret is dropping IH II, but if I had taken that all the way through, I'm almost positive I would not have passed that class. I don't know why, and I don't know why I was just so unmotivated to do pretty much anything, but...I did, so I dropped it. Hopefully not taking that class will matter for when I transfer credits over after I move...hm. Anyway, next semester I haven't registered (for now), but changing my mind like I always do, I think I just may take a couple of classes again...but I don't know. If I do, the only classes that I'd take is another Japanese course and another art course, probably in the upper levels. Actually, sadly that's the limit of classes that I can afford to take...it quite stinks when the college tuition is so high, yet there is hardly ANY scholarships (aside for the high school students) and/or loans in which to pay for the said tuition...and yet it's going up 5% like every semester or so. (What's up with that??) meh. Well, I guess I'll just see. My digital photography prof had said that another photography teacher will be coming to teach at TUJ next semester...I think he's a well-known photographer or something? I'm not sure of his name...but I think I shall ask my teacher if they could fit one more person in that class. Hopefully I wouldn't be too late... Aside from all this, this month, I have barely any shifts, again. I don't know why, considering that I've basically told my boss that I have a lot of days off now that school's out and whatnot but all I have is two shifts...meh. So I basically got another job as a temporary worker in a post office shifting through new year's postcards; a job I have done before two years ago. It's easy stuff once you get a hang of it, it just can get kind of boring after a while. haha. But eh, the pay's good, so I'm not complaining. Perhaps I could do the similiar kind of work for a long(er) term at the same post office after the first week of the new year is over, if they are still hiring. For that too, I shall see. The only thing bad about the temp job (besides that it's boring) is that apparently we supposedly start work on the 23rd, rather than the 26th, which is what I had originally thought (and thought was told). Hopefully I start on the 26th, but if it's from the 23rd at least that means more money...but still, hopefully I could also go out on christmas and do fun stuff. Not that I have anything planned...but it would kinda suck to work on christmas eve and day, although the Japanese generally don't have day(s) off from work on those days, anyway. But on the bright side...the hours are generally in the afternoon til early evening anyway, so I think even if I have to work on christmas eve/day, then I could still do something on those days after work, so I guess either way, it'd be all good. Yay. Umm...other things...well, tomorrow's my work's (the restaurant) bounenkai (end of year party), so that should be interesting. Good times will commence, I hope. I'm sure there'll be lots of food and alcolhol...I could only imagine how drunk some people will get tomorrow, even though they could quite possibly have to clock in the next year, hahaha. I'm quite looking forward to it. Well I should probably go to sleep now...gotta help clean the shop tomorrow, which should be fun. hah. Edit: I forgot to add that it was me and Thom's one year anniversary on Saturday, and we pretty much celebrated all weekend. ;) I just wish the weekend didn't end so soon...oh well.

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