truthseeker i'm looking for truth even though i know i'm not going to find it. believe it or not, i had an IAM account way back in 1998. i didn't have any modifications then, so it got revoked when the "no snoops" rule came into existence. anyway, despite reading BME pretty consistently for all this time, it took my wife leaving me, and the associated therapy to realize that i've been doing what i thought was "safe" all my life. so, i went out and got a PA, which i've always wanted. it's still healing, but it was a great experience. hopefully there will be more piercing and some of the tattoo ideas i've had for 10 years will finally see fruition. having said that, i will adopt the common local protocol of describing myself. i am: a geek a student fixated with music working on exercising more trying to find time for yoga an aquarium keeper an INTP personality type a robot, but trying to learn to talk to people unsure honest myself this is sort of what i look like.

still working on that..

2006/11/05 12:53 I'm at 3.5 weeks with the PA now. I know a weekly update is sort of silly, but given that my wife just left me a couple of months ago and i've got nothing better to do with my time, i wont worry too much. anyway, I am really anxious for this to heal up fully. i'm still having a few moments of slight pain, which appear to be the "crusties" pulling off the flesh or trying to move through the hole. last night i also had a tiny bit of bleeding - i think i was dry humping the mattress in my sleep. lol. it has been 4 months since i've had sex, so i suppose thats ok.

PA healing

2006/10/27 18:27 it is about 2.5 weeks in. let me give you a rundown of the healing process so far. (full experience forthcoming.. i feel like most of the experiences on here are for too short a time frame to be of any use) the first week i had bleeding pretty much every day. not heavy at all. then i realized it was almost exclusively at night (i was waking up with a lot of pinching pain too) which led me to believe the jewelry (5/8" diameter) was too small and was messing stuff up when i'd get a so called "nocturnal erection". i had it changed out for a 3/4. didn't bleed that night, and i've still not had any problems. things had been going really well and then i had a lapse of judgement. i went to use the restroom at work and the toilet stall was in use (which is what i normally use just to safe the risk of making a mess). my ring, a CBB, was in a bad position for urination with one of the beads inside my urethra, so i made the mistake of moving it. the hole had crusted up a bit over the day, and when i moved it, it tore some flesh. it's still pretty tender, but hopefully it will be back on schedule soon. here's a retroactive pic to the date of this post. as you can see, it's mildly irritated. mostly a result of trying to exercise, and maybe still a little pissed from the smaller ring + night time erections.

what is unconventional to you..

2006/10/22 20:22 well.. this isn't about body modification as it generally applies to this site, but i feel like it's modification none the less - exercising. i have been extremely inactive the past 15 years of my life. i was once an athlete, but now i weight well over 50 pounds more than i should. i'm weak and inflexible. i hadn't cared that much until i started doing yoga (i do the kundalini variety) and realized i couldn't do a lot of things that seemed really simple. so anyway, i've been doing this ancient "abs of stteel" workout tape, and it's actually pretty good. there are a lot of yoga like elements integrated in it, and after 3 or 4 weeks of doing it, i'm actually feeling and seeing results. it's weird that it takes so long, especially when you think about how quickly the initial appearance of a tattoo or piercing happen. i guess yoga is similar too. depending on the teaching, you are manipulating "circuits" of subtle energy in your body to achieve what ever it is you're trying to do. thats why i really dig the yoga; it's spiritual, but there's a kind of science to it.